FORGIVEN

Big things are happening around here

2007-10-06T13:10:00.000-07:00

Well, it is official....we moved!

So much peace.......settling in.....our children are happier and our life seems so much better.

What a relief, finally. Lots of unpacking, sorting and cleaning still left to do. But I love it, truly. It was the best choice I have made for years.

Must get back at it talk later.

One Question, what will be your answer?

2007-08-14T22:30:00.000-07:00

What do you want God to do for you?

The Story Of The Virgins Matt.25

2007-08-12T16:01:00.001-07:00

" God's kingdom is like ten young virgins who took oil lamps and went out to greet the bridegroom. Five were silly and five were smart. The silly virgins took lamps, but no extra oil. The smart virgins took jars of oil to feed their lamps. The bridegroom didn't show up when they expected him, and they all fell asleep.

In the middle of the night someone yelled out, " He's here! The bridegroom's here! Go out and greet Him!

The ten virgins got up and got their lamps ready. The silly virgins said to the smart ones, ' Our lamps are going out; lend us some of your oil.'

They answered, ' There might not be enough to go around; go buy your own.'

' They did, but while they were out buying oil, the bridegroom arrived. When everyone who was there to greet him had gone into the wedding feast, the door was locked.

Much later, the other virgins, the silly ones, showed up and knocked on the door, saying " Master, we're here let us in"

He answered, ' Do I know you? I don't think I know you.'

So stay alert. You have no idea when he might arrive!"

( I love this story, and everytime I read it I learn something hidden beneth the words. Everytime!)

A Sister Needs Much Prayer

2007-08-07T14:44:00.000-07:00

Last night I went to the emergency room...yippy gotta love those emergency rooms. Conclusion I have another bout of a painful kidney infection. So I am asking for prayer.....because this is now the second time I have had one and I am wondering why... The doctors are not sure why this keeps reaccures. And I was warned that if it were to happen again I would be staying in the hospital for a lengthy testing period......So please pray that God will heal me...and that the medication I am on will stop making me sick...

Thanks off for now to hard to sit down....

2007-08-03T18:25:00.000-07:00

Reluctant----- unwilling, showing unwillingness slow to act.....

Fearful------causing fear; terrible, dreadful full of fear........

This is the story of my life. Dieting especially. Which one to choose, which one truly works. As if losing weight is not hard enough there are over a million programs to choose from. And they all claim the same results. So which one is right for me? Weight watchers? Best life Diet, man alive the diet/ fitness industry makes billions each year. Especially from overweight people like me.

It is sad really, cause the principiles are the same. Eat healthy, excersise more! Humm what a concept. And people profit...of others unheathy lifestyles.....

So this week I am asking the Lord to show me what exactly He wants me to do.......and exactly where I am to go.......

Blessings to all who have found the diet that works.....

My Feelings Today

2007-08-01T09:04:00.000-07:00

~A man is called selfish not for pursuing his own good,
but for neglecting his neighbor's. ~

Richard Whately

In the Small Things...........great things are made......

2007-07-30T13:28:00.000-07:00

I am so small....so weak...and so fragile....compared to God.

But in my smallness great things will come. Huge, gigantic things will come of me.... if I put my trust in God all the things that I dream will come true.

True I may never be a artist. Or a builder....or a scuba diver. A doctor, lawyer, teacher, nurse, or financial planner. This is true I may never be these things, and yet I am.

To my kids I am a sand castle builder, a swimming instructor, a doctor--mending all those scraped knees. The best lawyer in town--have to split up those arguments : ) I am there roll model teacher....there loving nurse.....a total budget planner. To my kids I am the best artist in the world.

So out of my smallness great huge things will be accomplished. My children are those big things in my life that God wants from me. And each day something profound comes from our relationship. They grow in the Lord, and so do I.

I love them all, with all that I am, and all that God is in me!!!!!!!!

Hip Hip Hiporay

2007-07-28T12:47:00.000-07:00

`( This is not me...it is a lady named Diane. But this is how much I weigh.)~ Sad, but true. I have reached a weight that I am so sick of. But in this eye opening journey, I have realized so many things.

1) Is that I am so an emotional eater. Happy, sad, mad, dissipointed, angry, lonely, tired, depressed.... Yep I am an emotional eater. I haven't always been this size, nor this out of shape. And I am pinpointing the very moment I started to turn to food. It was after I had my oldest son. And through tramatic events that followed suit, I found that food comforted me, even for just a minute. And it got worse, way worse. With each child I have had I have never lost the baby weight. Wow, four kids, a lot of weight gained and not so much lost. Not that I am blaming my children, I would never do that. Because I totally know it was all me.

I chose to eat...I gained the weight.

What makes it worse is that now I am so addicted to food I am so scared of eating healthy. Sound weird? It is so true.

2) I put on the weight and only I can remove it. Ahh scary, yep. I have to lose over 100lbs....geesh that is like a baby elephant....holy man am I scarred. And yet...I am so sick and tired of having to only buy plus size close. Cause they never have anything I like. I am tired of people judging me for my weight. And I am tired of how weird I feel in a bathing suite.

3) Everything must change. The way I look at food. How I view excersise. The way I turn to food to be my friend.....and all that. It is all in my mind...and I so know that. What you believe about yourself ( positive or negative) you will be. If you think low of yourself, then you treat yourself negatively. So this must change. I must uproot all those lies I have told myself over the years, UPROOT THEM ALL! Place new truths in my head, biblical solid truths.

So yes, this is going to be my weight loss journey journal day---Saturday's

You can join me, if you wish.

I am going to keep you all posted!

2007-07-27T14:08:00.000-07:00

I wanted to share my heart here.

First, when I blog, I blog what is on my heart. I sometimes feel God wanting me to share a particular thing, while other times I just write.

Secondly when I blog I never revel personal things. Because mind you it is on the Internet.

Thirdly, sometimes I write to vent, to complain, to whine. Sometimes I write about hurts, pain, and disappointment. Things from my past, and hopes for my future.

I try not to mention names, because I am not in this blogging world to bash anyone. So if you miss my motive, I am honestly sharing how I feel. I hope no one takes any personal attack, because it is not about that. It is about me, my walk, my life. I honestly hope I haven't offended anyone on here, and if I have I am so sorry.

Sometimes, it is hard to understand what someone is saying, especially on here. And because I know no one really knows me here, all is well. That is why we are called into relationships.....but on the high speed world of fast pass life...sometimes one can miss understand..heaven nows I have...a lot.

`So peace sisters read, my life. Learn something, laugh, cry and rejoice with me. You all mean the world to me. And I enjoy your comments.

Can you Honestly Love Plastic People In those Plastic Steepials

2007-07-25T09:01:00.000-07:00

Gotta love those people who are plastic people.

They sit in there plastic benches in those plastic steepials.

Living plastic lives. They are proud of there plastic ways. Can one truly love plastic people. Who seem never to have anything wrong with them. There walk with God is perfect, the marriages are perfect, there kids are perfect, there health is perfect, there finances are perfect, nothing ever seems to get to these plastic people.

At least that is what they want everyone to know. But deep down in these plastic people they are not perfect. So why is it that they wish everyone to know they are perfect. Maybe, because if one truly looked inside them they wouldn't much like them. The things they say, about others, and the things they have done behind closed doors, would astound many that they have fooled.

So I cherish not being a plastic person. Everyone knows what is going on with me, before I do sometimes. But the great thing, isn't everyone knowing, it is that I am completely honest with God, and with myself.

It is Official................

2007-07-24T14:49:00.000-07:00

I am moving....it is official...loan went through.........yeah so happy!

Now we need a lawyer ( yuck ) and we need movers.......and I need to pack again. But first we are totally gutting the house and fixing it up so I am not sure when the official move date will be......but we are so excited.

Right now, I am doing 5 loads of laundry ( not my favorite ), cleaning the dishes in my brand new dishwasher ( yippy), vacuuming is done...few. Kids are out of the house yeah, all except one...who is so having a great nap.

It is hot and humid but looks like rain.....oh how I love the rain.

My best friend moved here. Going out with her tonight...alone with no kiddies...so excited to spend time with her. She and I have been friends for 6 years now...and I love her.

As far as me and God.....he is my rock.....love him more and more...each new day.....
`Peace Out Sisters love ya all : } ~

Could it be any more hotter in here?

2007-07-23T15:14:00.000-07:00

Crazy hot weather...it is about 30 + outside but it is about 40 + inside.....man can't win.

So hot...so grumpy...and so tired...but hey at least there is ice cold ice tea in the fridge...yippy.

To hot to continue...must retreat to my basement...lol

So....burnt....so glad to be Home!!!!

2007-07-22T18:06:00.000-07:00

Well, my break was awesome. The kids and I did nothing but swim...swim...swim. Wow, being away from home, was so good. And it reminded me, that I am not a city girl. In fact, I hate city life with a passion. The peace, the quiet surrender, in the middle of no where, can't be described. The absolute freedom to be who you want to be. No gossip out in the middle of no where, ahh what a relief. It was a godly, moment in my life.

I loved it so much that I have decided to move my family away from the city life. From all those who have hurt me, and continue to. To get away and retreat into God's nature wow, can not see why no one else would.

Anyways, just a few things God showed me in the moments of silence I had.....

1) You can't build a fire with out wood..... meaning you can never build the flame after God if you allow people to stiffer it.

2) You have to be careful roasting marshmallows, because if they are not on the right way they will fall off. Meaning, that our walk with God has to be positioned in such a way so that God can actually work with us. Ever so gently turning us, so that he won't burn us. Positioning us over that refiners fire. Purifying us, making us clean and holy.......hummm

3) You need to take an flashlight when going to the outhouse in the middle of the night ( really gotta love that smell that outhouses admit). Must be that kinda stench when we sin....geesh who wants to smell that all the time, not me. As I learned this week off, that when one has to pee in the middle of the night, one really must take a light with them. Or they will stumble, fall for Satan's lies, believe that what others have to say is who one person is, or whatever. When we think we are in the light we really only have a flashlight shining down on where we think we are headed.

4) Always put bug spray on at night..... those little bugs bite, hard and leave a nasty itch. If we put God on he keeps all those nasty things from ever bothering us again. Backbiting won't hurt , gossip definitely won't affect you, others lying----won't get through . That itch that bothers us will soon go away, and we won't even remember what they where in the first place.

I am so glad I love to camp. I am so glad that God touched me in so many positive ways. This post may sound bitter, but it so is not...really. It is something that God is showing me, reveling to my heart, and it was such a good lesson. For so many years I followed after some certain women in the church I was going to. I so wanted to " fit in". But I got it all wrong I listen to them before I listened to God. They would say jump, and I would say, How High. Well, to find out later that these same women I so tried to impressed would sit around and gossip about me. How honestly devastating that was for me, so heart breaking really. But in away, it was the start of something that God would later reveal to me. It is not about others, goodness no my daughter, it is about me. If they choose to be like that, that is on them. If they choose to walk in sin, it is there sin....but there is something I need to work on in you. It is....
1) That God is God....no matter what that the creator of this world only wants me....that is right ladies I am God's favorite one....he told me so. His oppion matters only, His direction is the most important, and that means if someone says or does something or takes offense to something I have done, Oh well. It is making our relationship right first that matters mostly.

2) Believing without one single doubt that no matter how many times I " screw" up, He loves me anyways. He will never gossip, lie, backbite, cheat, belittle, abuse or neglect you. He will always love you, and he will never forsake you!

Oh ladies have so much more to say...so much more...but I have to clean and unpack...hehehehe.

P.S Please leave nice encouraging comments or don't leave any at all lol!( Sound like my mom, oh hey I am one.)

I Am Off....For Awhile Need To Give Blogger A Break

2007-07-13T22:01:00.001-07:00

So Yeah I am going to be off blogger for some time. Going to the Lake, and I need to step away from blogger world for a bit. I am struggling, because I started blogging to reach out to those in need.....and to start online blogging Christian relationships. Not sure that either has occurred. But that is why I am walking away for a bit need to check my motives, and my heart.

So I guess for those who come....sorry....and those of you that care....thanks...pray for me!

Little Update

2007-07-12T21:54:00.000-07:00

Joshua is 10 now. How time flies by. He is so smart, so loving, go athletic, and so popular. He is my firstborn. He is an amazing man already. He dearly loves his brothers and sister. And would do, almost anything for them. Makes me so proud that he is mine.

Next in line is Dayton. He is six, and going into grade one....taught by me of coarse. He is my extreme athletic. Anything and everything he picks up like nothing. He is more responsible, more caring and definately more helpful. I so love Him, for who God created him to be.

Then my only girl Zoe. She is three turning sixteen. She is my mommy in training. She is so smart and so beautiful. And she is getting so tall. She wants to be a singer/ song writer when she gets older. She is going to be taught kindergarden by me of coarse, and I am truly excited. I so love her, with all that I am.

Then there is Nathaniel. He's is my supermodel baby. He walks, runs, gets into everything...sigh. He has the most beautiful blue eyes that I have ever laid my eyes on. He is trying to speak....he can say three clear words.....so proud of him. I so love him, I cherish him. In every moment!

And well as for me....things are rising on that amazing horizon. Might have found the one I may marry... so excited.....

I am preparing my heart everyday in worship with my God. And my lover is so proud of me, and I so know it. Feels good to proclaim it, and to just receive it.

My children and I are off to the lake for a hole 7 days....so excited to get away. To get refreshed and renewed in the middle of God's creation....yippy skippy it is a camping we will go with all kids in tow....hehe.

So I love ya all can't wait to share when I get back.

2007-07-10T22:01:00.000-07:00

Today:

I will worship you Lord

Tomorrow:

I will worship you again Lord

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This week is going supper slow. I have a lot on my mind this week. And if I let my mind take over I might miss the most important things. Worshiping God even when things aren't perfect.
Not like my life isn't...it actually is. I have come to peace with certain things...(ie) like I am at peace with what happened a year ago...few. One of the hardest things I had to walked through is finally finding rest at the foot of the cross.

A huge victory, even though I am sure that some many not think so.....it is a huge one. Things are best left at the foot of the cross.... it is the only place where we can dump our trash without a charge. The most amazing gift was given back to me, my son. Yeah, victory there as well. Praise God. ( Supper careful to tell this story, cause ya never know who reads your blogs)!
And God in His glory is working in me so much more so. But that doesn't mean I don't over think....cause I do. It doesn't mean that there are still areas I wish I could change....o because there are. It just means that I am lying face first at the cross. And God is reminding me.....just worship me!

2007-07-09T14:04:00.000-07:00

LET US BE FISHER'S OF MEN!!!!!

2007-07-08T17:46:00.000-07:00

To walk in truth we need to sacrifice ourselves.

This is one amazing heart truth that I have been learning this last while. Actually for the last year. It is so hard to always walk in truth. To always do what is right, in God's eyes. But we must press forth through our fleshly selfs, and do what we must in order to further God's kingdom.

With this sacrifice God assures us that he will honor that which he desires. Wow, isn't that so amazing that he will honor us when we do what is right in his eyes.

This is so easier said then done in our lives.....how I know this to be true. But as I stumble, well actually trip----fall face first-------then get up again, God watches over me, and you. When I think about my son Nathaniel, who is one know. But when he started to learn to walk I couldn't help thinking to myself, " Self, he will get up. He will find his way. I just need him to learn it on his own. With my loving supportive hand to guide him, he will eventually get it." And guess what HE DID.

He discovered, what we take a lifetime learning. How to balance, how to make a stand, how to walk in courage, and how get up when we fall. Wow, a one year old understands, and yet doesn't totally. And that is how I feel sometimes. I get it...yet I don't sometimes understand. But that is where God's grace and mercy flows in. Covers the areas where we haven't quite gotten, and gently shows us what needs to be done.

This week I am going to commit myself to two things. 1) that I will sacrifice t.v for one week ( kids are joing in whether they like it or not) 2) that I will sacrifice my sweets this week ( oh this is gonna be hard ladies trust me....already scared lol )

So I hope that there is some light in what I have said. I hope that God stirs some truth into your life.

Blessings, all my dear readers.
I love ya all!

2007-07-07T14:06:00.000-07:00

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( Join In Here at this link above and get the rules)

Rules:

1. those tagged will share 5 things they dig about Jesus…

2. those tagged will tag 5 other bloggers…

3. those tagged will post a comment here with their name and a link to their “dig” Jesus list…

I DIG JESUS....Been Tagged So Here Goes

1. I Dig Jesus because he first Dug me...even before I was thought off, or conceived he knew exactly who I was.

2. I dig Jesus because he is my Abba Father, Alpha,Omega, lover, friend, my guide, my helper, and my redeemer.

3. I dig Jesus because he washed me white as snow. I am forgiven, loved, and cherished.

4. I dig Jesus because there is no one like Him....I run to him for acceptance, comfort understanding, and correction.

5. I dig Jesus because each morning I wake I feel Him, and all day I fellowship with Him, and at the end of each day I thank Him for all that He is and has done.

So I am gonna Tag:CareBear ( Sarah), Sting My Heart ( Wendy), Fruit In Season ( Christine), Fresh FLowers ( Lani ), and God is Control...Not Me ( Crystal)

Love ya all.

My Faithful Friday.....

2007-07-06T11:34:00.000-07:00

Lord...help me to be faithful even in the small things.

Today I will be faithful in my duty as a mother. Even though Lord it can have hard times. I will remain faithful to them today. Teaching them your love. Showing the grace and mercy you show me everyday.

Today I will faithfully wait on you Lord, to reveil my destiny.

Today I will think of others in need and faithful pray for them.......

Thank you Lord. Teach me to grow in you faith, and your Love.

Thankful Thursday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-07-05T13:21:00.000-07:00

I am so thankful it is thursday today.

It has been an eye opening truth reveiling week so far. I am totally excited about what God is doing in my life, and of coarse...I am extemely thankful.

Some things God has reveiled...that I am thankful for:

That the nasty bitter taste of my sin in getting greater, changing my view on this one particular sin..... so thankful life changing things are happening over here, yeah.

The Fleshy woman in me is dying..amen... and the righteous women is awakening.....so thankful it is about time....

My home schooling year starts soon...so amazingly thankful God gave me four beautiful, healthy children......thanks God!

I am almost done cleaning house......yeah....so thankful it's going to start all over again.....for God's glory.

I picked a date for my weight loss Journey.....God wants me to start on July 15/07....Weight watchers/ Bob Green's Diet.....lots of excersise...but most importantly healthy life choice......praise God, so thankful!

I am thankful for all that is being reveiled in my life.

My prayer is this week that God will fulfill one thing....A Holy Friendship....that is something I desire for myself this week. I pray that God will bring this person into my life... I'll keep ya'll posted.

A Holy Friendship

2007-07-04T15:55:00.001-07:00

Something must be said about a Holy Friendship. A relationship that is like no other. A relationship that everyone desires, needs, wants, and longs for.

This relationship is healthy. This relationship means the world to both people.

This relationship is in depth, and totally and completely real 100 percent of the time. This relationship is one in which others mimic and desire. Closeness and honesty drive this relationship. No hidding, no lying, absolutely no gossiping, no back stabbing, no rummor spreading, no talking nasty about. Nope non of these.

There is mutual love and respect. There is rejoicing and celebrating together for each other. When times get hard, and we all know they do, they can lean on each other for comfort, support, and understanding.

A Holy Friendship, to me, is like mimicing Jesus to one another. It also means that no matter what the other person does...or lacks to do.....there is still love, like Jesus loves us. Jesus never stops loving us, he adores our fellowship. And as a woman after God's own heart, I must say: Stand up, women, resemble Jesus in every area of your life. Your friendships should display Jesus all the time. Just like a woman is to honor and love her husband, I believe that it is vital that we display that also to all of our relationships.

I get so frustrated about how Christian women display themselves. They gossip, behind others backs as if Jesus never died on the cross. They stir up trouble as if God never sees there hearts motives. All of us, including me, struggle with us. If anyone denies it, they lie.

" He went on ; " What comes out of a man/woman is what makes him/her unclean. For from within, out of men's/women's hearts come evil thoughts." Mark 7:20-21

God, change us.
Renew us, and transform us.
Teach us how to be like you in absolutely every area of our lives.
Let us love one another like you love us.
Let the truth, set us free.
Let us be conformed, to your word.

I pray Amen.

2007-07-03T07:40:00.000-07:00

This award has been created to honor those families who are committed to " Training Loving Hearts " in there children.

Commiment Pledge:

We are a Christian family desiring to raise our children with the primary focus of Training their Hearts

" I have no greter joy than to hear that my children walk in the truth." 3 John 1:4

" Train up a child in the way he should go; and when he is old, he will not depart from it." Proverbs 22:6

Pressing On

2007-07-02T10:25:00.000-07:00

" Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect," Paul writes in Philippians 3: 12-14, " but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ jesus took hold of ME. Sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thisng I do; Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.

I press on.... these words echo in my own heart, bringing me comfort and courage.

So I press on, and I hope you will too. Believe me dear sister, we can trust God. If we allow the spotlight of heaven to shine on the dark recesses of our souls, God will scrub off the old layers of whitewash. He'll remove those pockets of Martha driveness and Pharisee pride. By the power of the Holy Spirit." Quote taken from Having a Mary Spirit by Joanna Weaver

Okay got a Holy Spirit felt book yesterday from a lady at church. Neat thing is is that it was my first time there. I sat beside this older lady, in which I know not her name, and said hello. Well, she, being filled with the Holy Spirit first welcomed me to the church, then turned and said a hello to my children. And what happened next I am still kinda in awe. She got up and left. But she forgot a book on the seat. So I picked it up and went to find her. She wasn't in the lobby, so I asked the usher where she went. She was in the bathroom. So I went there, with kids and tow. Two boys, in the girls room yep there I went. I told her she left this book behind and she turned and said," God wants you to have it, I do not need it anymore, so it is yours." Pardon, it is for me? Really, well thank you so much. At this point I hadn't even looked at the title of it. When I did I was amazed. Because just the other day God wanted me to go and buy this book. What are the chances that could have happened. I have never gotten something for free. Wow, was I blessed. Came home and read and read till 12 last night. I couldn't put it down for the life of me, geesh how God works, makes me giggle.

Having A Mary Spirit, by Joanna Weaver! That is the book...got get one it is the best...honestly. I can feel the Spirit of God pouring out of this book.

Today, be your best for God's sake.

Love you all,
blessings

2007-07-01T13:48:00.001-07:00

What Ranya Means

R is for Rare

A is for Arty

N is for Natural

Y is for Young

A is for Active

What Does Your Name Mean?

For Pete Sake's It Is Never Too Late

2007-06-30T17:57:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I feel like boy, I just can't get being a Christian. And more often than not I find myself thinking: " What is it that I can do, to get my life right. And for Pete Sake's why is it that it seems I get stuck doing those nasty things I hate in myself."

( Answer) There is absolutely nothing that I can do that would make God love me anything else. " How great is the love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God. And that is what we are!!!!" 1John 3:1

There are times I wonder if that nasty infected sin that has devowered me will go away. And then the truth comes. Like a wave the truth washes over all lies and untruths and shines a bright light on the things in the darkness. God reveils to us not only the truth but it exposes the lies. And as one of my major resources that I have in my home I open it, and in God word it states that knowing the truth. the truth will set you free. Amen to that!

So I quess it is not imparitive that one exactly knows why they do what they do, but turn 360 degrees in the other direction. Exposing all the lies that surrond that area in one's life, repent, ask for forgiveness, then know with all the love that God showers on you THAT YOU ARE FORGIVEN.

This is been one journey in my life. I am so walking this out still. And will continue too until the Lord comes to get us. For Pete Sake's It Is Never Too Late, for you my friend. You can, do it. Believe it and it will happen.

My Faithful Friday

2007-06-29T08:37:00.000-07:00

( I want to start faithful Friday. This is what it means to me. Being faithful as we all know is a huge part of a Christian walk. We are called to be faithful in everything we do. Please do not hear this as perfection, because we do not need to be perfect....just faithful. I'll show you what I mean....)

Today Lord help me walk in faith. That I leave this day unto you Lord.

I Stand and Glorify you today....

Help me to be faithful in getting my cleaning done.

I will faithfully memorize one scripture today.

I will faithfully show someone grace and mercy today

I will believe, and walk out in my faith, in those areas where I struggle today.

I will love my children faithfully today, no matter how many fights I may have to break up, no matter what

This is my first faithful list. And I believe in knowing I will be faithful today in these areas will give me something to say: I walked in being faithful in the small things Lord, help me to be faithful in the big things.

I have something profound to say............

2007-06-28T07:36:00.000-07:00

GOD IS LOVE...HE LOVES US ALL.

TODAY, IF YOU FEEL YOURSELF STRUGGLING...WANTING TO COMPLAIN. REMEMBER GOD LOVES YOU AND WILL HELP YOU THROUGH THIS TIME. HE ALONE CAN HELP YOU....HE ALONE CAN COMFORT YOU.

TAKE REFUGE IN YOUR SAVIOUR, AND REMEMBER WITH EVERYTHING THERE IS A SEASON. THIS TOO SHALL PASS.

I SO LOVE YOU ALL,
EACH ONE OF YOU WHO COME, READ AND LEARN.

BLESSINGS TODAY!!

~Forgiven

My Wordless Wednesday

2007-06-27T14:35:00.001-07:00

Easy...take it slow...soon the end will appear and things will be great again!
Blessings : )

VICTORY

2007-06-26T08:55:00.000-07:00

Don't you feel like jumping in? Want to be refreshed? Jump in then, to God's word. Trust me the word of God feels fresher than jumping into the water on a hot summer's day. It can refresh you, answer those deep down questions, it reveils the truth to sustain you. Trust me, if you don't have a bible...........get on today!

I have been on a journey of healing this last couple of months. And I want to share just one victory that I have had...to prove that God is who he says he is. I have been working with one amazing loving couple, over the last little bit. They, I believe, truly demonstate the love the Lord has for me. Anyways, when I was 5 I was sexual abused by a babysitter that I had. He raped me, laughed in my face and left. And I never, and I mean never told anyone for sixteen years. Then one day in lifestyle class in highschool I had my first melt down. After that I went to see a therepist which was an eye opening experience. I had to tell my parents...and that was the hardest thing I had to do...even after years. I was afraid of hurting them, disipointing them. And sure enough they we upset, but not in the way I thought. They cried for me, reached out for me, and loved me.

This burdened I carried for 23 years. I was reliving it over and over again. Until, Ron stepped up and reached into my heart. He reveiled the truth in that circumstance. We renounced the devil and he ran.......terrified and was about to happen. God stepped in and healed that hurt...so much so my physical body felt it all over. And today I can say strongly that I have victory over those lies that the devil stated to me about this circumstance. Complete and totally victory. I no longer live it day to day, and in fact I can't even try to remember that which happened to me. God will not allow it, and trust me I tried to make sure that it was for real..And it was, totally completely.

There is something amazing about walking through something hard. God meets us....joins us...and covers us. After this experience I was totally drunk in the Spirit, which was another sign that God had completely removed this from my life.

So be enriched, encouraged, excited because God can and is waiting to give each one of us victory in our lives. Whatever that is, he is waiting for you, to be broken so he can restore you. He loves you all, be richly blessed!

2007-06-24T19:45:00.000-07:00

Sometimes, things need to be done one step at a time.... one foot forward, and one foot back. And eventually we will get where God wants us to go.

I had an extremely peaceful weekend...yeah gotta love that peace. I have grown in areas I never thought I would grow. And my eyes are wide open to the areas that still need growth.
" For you are God, O Sovereign Lord. Your words are truth, and you have promised these good things to your servant." 2 Samuel 7: 28

So I need to ask for accountability. I am feeling the tug of my heart in one specific area in my life... and I know that I could ask for people who are around me, and I will, but I want to extend my hand to those lovely Christian women who I am getting to know. I am going to join Weight Watchers, again, and I am asking that those who feel lead to hold me accountable to this weight loss journey, do. I have been examining my heart over the last month in prep for this soon to be challenge. I have been listening to God's inner voice. And least to say that he wants me to be radically transformed. To solely depend on Him for every word, breathe, and life. But I need to cleanse myself of the things that I have been placing into my temple. To honor, respect, love, and cherish this earthly vessel that I have been given.

So if you feel that you would love to join me in this personal journey, feel free. There is no pressure, at all. I thank each one of you who have come into my life, I am truly grateful.

" The Lord is my rock, my fortress, and my savior; my God is my rock in whom I find protection. He is my shield, the power that saves me and my place of safety. He is my refuge, my savior. I call on the Lord, who is worthy of praise." 2 Samuel 22:2-4

Simply This......

2007-06-23T10:29:00.001-07:00

Simply this I am forgiven
Simply I am redeemed by the blood of Jesus
Simply I am a child of God
Simply I am content in my Savior
Simply I am washed white as snow
Simply I am loved, with all my faults, by the only lover I need.....Jesus Christ
Simply I am renewed, restored
Simply I am God's masterpiece
Simply I am totally unique
Simply I am who I am...who God created me to be...whether others approve it doesn't matter, because simply it is God that I desire not the approval of men!

Being simple is realizing only the truth, the truth that God's word declares. Nothing and I mean nothing else really matters because it is eternity that should matter the most to us. So be simple rest in the abundance that simplicity can bring. Don't get caught up in the law, rather learn from it and desire mostly what God wants you to now.

God excepts us just where we are at......

Blessings

2007-06-21T12:30:00.001-07:00

I am thankful that there are different seasons.... a season to learn....a season to be humble.....a season of joy and peace......

I am thankful that I am living free

I am thankful that today is Thursday, and not Monday.

I am thankful that my son is finally over the flu........

I am thankful that I had a great laugh attack with carebearsunshine.blogspot.com today..... it has been awhile and I am grateful

I am thankful that the joy of the Lord waits for us every morning

I am thankful that my son is growing and maturing in the Lord everyday : )

I am thankful for To train up a child series by Michael and Debi Pearl....it is second to my bible

I am thankful that God restores us

I am thankful that I am a single mother

I am thankful that this post is done : )

Blessings to you all today, love you all

2007-06-20T12:33:00.000-07:00

'I AM' Bible Study
Lesson Eight
'Instrument of Wonders'

(You can join here....go to this link add your name and then have fun!)
http://thepreachers-wife.blogspot.com/

Let's think about that in our Discussion Questions:

1. Have you ever been in a situation where you had to 'go back' to a place of shame or ridicule? How did that make you feel?
I am there right now actually. I have been " going back" to the things I have done so that I may have God's holy healing. And I would say, that I would rather not. Sometimes it is to hard...actually a lot of the time. But I know in order to have complete victory over the things that have been " holding" me down, it is a good step. Not that shame or ridicule is from God, rather it is how I personal feel about some of the things that I have done. But one very special thing that God is teaching me is that 1) shame is not of God it is a feeling we place upon ourselves out of guilt 2) ridicule is not of God either. As the result of others placing ridicule and shame upon us it is there inability to know who they are in Christ, or who others are in Christ. Because if that were the case there would be a lot less shame and ridicule thrown around.

2. Is there any circumstance in your life that still has you running for cover? Share if you feel comfortable.
I would have to say yes to this question. I still have a lot of things to work out in my life. But the one thing I truly know is that changing the way you think is so much harder than loosing a leg. In fact sometimes I have come to believe that the things others say about me is how in turn feel about myself. That I care moreover what others think that what God thinks of me. But I am learning slowly, trusting completely, to the one I love---Jesus Christ

3. When is the last time you felt like an overcomer?
I have been feeling victory in a lot of areas in my life. And actually it started last week when someone I love came over. His first words were, "I want to help you overcome what has been holding you down." So together with his wife we prayed, walked into repentance, prayed for forgiveness, and then the Holy Spirit poured into me so much so it felt so good. I actually felt like I was high---a totally God high----And for the first time in years I can say I have totally overcome that which had been keeping me in bondage.
4. If you have not yet taken the serpent by the tail, are you willing to stop running, take hold and trust God to transform it into a tool for wonders?
Yes, Yes, Yes I am willing, waiting and wanting to take the serpent in my life and completely trust God to use it for many wonders. Oh man getting the chills ladies, yep and this is my prayer for everyone!

5. I would like for you to write down this statement based on 1 John 2:14 somewhere you will see it often this week: "I am strong, the Word of God abides in me, and I have overcome the evil one." Memorize it. Say it over and over until you believe it. Will you do this?? Most of the time, there are no right or wrong answers, but on this one, I'm expecting a 'yes'!

Yes, it is a yes from me : ) yippy skippy feeling so good

Not so Wordless Wednesday

2007-06-19T22:51:00.001-07:00

" Start counting your blessings rather than recounting the reasons why you should be miserable." Michael and Debi Pearl

" As the joy of the Lord is the Christian's strength, the joy of the parent is the child's strength." Michael and Debi Pearl

" Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me." Psalms 51:12

2007-06-18T19:56:00.000-07:00

There are only two paths in life. One leads to life, with God. And the other leads to death, apart from God. Which would you rather? Which one do you find yourself on today. The easy road where things are so " good " or the hard road where things are hard, but life fulfilling?

Being a child of God doesn't mean perfection it means the direction you are following. God knows each heart by name, He knows it all beginning and end. But the choice is ours to make. Doesn't mean that we may not stumble along the way, but it's the getting up and carrying on no matter what is thrown your way. It means standing up to those giants in our lives, conquering them and moving forward for the Glory and Honor of our Lord. Not for personal gain..... thinking we are better than everyone else....nope it's is being humble, merciful, gracious, loving, kind and caring. The character of Jesus....to demonstrate Jesus to those who do not yet know him. That is what we are called to do....1) Decide what road we are going to take 2) then follow it with your whole being 3) Preaching it to the nations. Sounds exciting.......... and the cool thing is is that God forgives us so easily......He makes the choice simple and plain. What an amazing God, what an amazing choice.

Today is a choice day, choose life and live with God. Choose the wide road and it leads to death. Death, Life........Life, Death.......hummm getting a little nervous. IT"S LIFE OR DEATH!

Blessings

What Makes Me Tick...

2007-06-17T21:27:00.000-07:00

I love ice Cap's from Tim Hortons

I love Tulips, purple ones are my favorite.

I love reading Christian authors, and of coarse the bible

I love my new van...it is a true blessing with three little ones

I love my new puppy KIA she's a doll

I love walks over running

I love music..... love it

I love sad girlie movies

I love blogging....love sharing my heart

I love camping...tenting actually

I love nature...and all that it displays

I love when it rains

I love it when there is a 50% discount at Value Village

I love older houses with lots of history

I love cooking and baking

I would love to learn how to sew

I love that soon I will be moving.......

I love that each of my children are gifted in there own areas

I love that I am set apart and unique

I love to swim.... born and raised in the water : )

I love Soccer with a passion

I love watching Documentaries on TV

I love that there is a lot of me to love : )

Only The Best

2007-06-16T15:33:00.000-07:00

Wow.. God had been putting a lot of good things on my heart lately. A lot of things.... to many to count actually.....

I only want what God wants for me. And that desire in me is getting stronger. God is reveling life changing things to me and my family. And I feel the freedom to share some of them. As I shared in my other posts that I was home schooling my children this up coming year. And I was so afraid....terrified actually....but I want to share what God is doing in me. I was called to study the Amish. So I researched and researches there history... I felt the Lord calling me out. Calling me out into the destiny that he has for me and my children. And I felt so overwhelmed by it, refreshed and renewed by it. To stand firm in the truth..... to know that despite what others believe this is the only way to life.

Home schooling isn't just a thing people do. It is a way of life for many home schooler's. And no one home schooling family is exactly the same. But the foundations of a home schooling family remains. They want to teach there children there beliefs. And at a moment in time that was somewhat overwhelming...what is it I believe. ( It is good to go back to the basics so that the foundation one builds in there children's lives is built on the rock) Anyways, so my journey starts there. To understand my faith I was to look at the Amish for my guide. Weird I know God takes me places I would never thought of on my own.

So anyways, the Amish totally surround there children with strict biblical principles. They raise there children to be humble, loving, obedient to God's word, respect there elders or people in authority. Wow in today's society that is uncommon. Even Christian parents still have struggles with there children. Not really surprising.

There is only one way, God's way. No other way will do it for my family. And as a result my children are in for a loving surprise. A godly mother, who will lay that foundation. Who will hold them closely and will not let the stray. Who will train them in the ways of the Lord, being loving and forgiving. Who will demonstrate what Jesus Christ would have done.

So as I believe that God stirred in me to home school my children I will not wonder off that path the Lord has given me. Until the day the Lord says, enough. My fears are washed away. I'm not even worried about it. I am not worried about what should I teach, how to teach, etc. Instead God is the director and author of the best curriculum there is....the bible. There is no worries for tomorrow or what it shall bring. Because I now that my children are surrounded by God and he will teach them everything they need to now for the kingdom to come...

I am not frantic about cleaning or organizing, nope not me : ) big relief. I am not afraid, nope not me. I am though excited. I found my calling, understand it, and desire to fulfill it. Taking after the women before me who have made that same choice. To be invited by the Lord to raise these precious little ones he had given me. Enjoying them, encouraging them, understanding them, being a covering over them, leading them, teaching them, forgiving them, and blessing them for there lives wow what a gift.

~PS I will not be here for awhile I am looking for a house in the middle of no where. However, I will tell all once I now more.

Blessings to you all,
Forgiven

~Fridays Post on Thursday Night

2007-06-14T22:05:00.000-07:00

Can there be another chance...... could there be enough grace and mercy? My question... my answer....yes for sure. God gives us so many chances...sometimes we get it right and sometimes we are so way off base. But I believe that when we realize that the choices we have made are totally wrong and that what we have done has hurt so many people we love, and in those moments of realization, we come crawling back. To that sturdy, foot of the cross, where Jesus said " Forgive them for they know not what they do." And with his out stretched arms he loved us enough to die for us. So then if that weight wasn't enough, he still loves us no matter what. Like especially when we " royally " mess things up...for that one millionth time. God never sees it that way, because he would never see us in those eyes... he never would. Because when God looks at us he sees love....he sees his child, one that he created and excepts with all the failures and faults....AMEN AMEN AMEN AMEN. He lifts us higher when we are broken....... he surrounds us with his out stretched arms, even when no one else would. That God is the one I love...because I know that he loves me.

I love the saying love the sinner not the sin. And sometimes we judge others based on there sins. And I believe that God has no part in sin, and dislikes it strongly. He never pushes us away rather he draws us closer----- restoring us----bring us into Holy repentance----forgiving us------releasing us-------and then once that is all done he celebrates with us, he prepares a huge feast.....the best linens will only do.........the best meals are prepared...and then, he fellowships with us. Because He loves us...everyone... all are equal before him.....

Isn't that amazing....God has been obviously taking me on this strong journey of restoration, forgiveness, and it is so great. I now sometimes when God is teaching us sometimes he makes us repeat it over and over until we believe it. Someone who I dearly love once stated, " Fake it until you make it." And I will never forget those wise words. Cause sometimes we never get that whole picture we need to solve our issues, and sometimes we have fallen so deeply for the lies that Satan has planted. But when truth is revealed, the enemy had no grounds to stand...... so bare with me.... I am learning!

My Thankful Thursday

2007-06-14T07:08:00.001-07:00

Okay what am I thankful for today..........

I am thankful for the fact that it is getting nicer, and warmer outside that means kids are outside more, which means I can get my stuff done. I am so thankful for this.

I am thankful for thrift shops. They are my home away from home. I am thankful that someone else's junk is someone else's treasure.

I am thankful that my puppy will soon be house broken. She is so beautiful and another part of our extended family.

I am thankful for all the women who's men are serving in this war. The are a sign of strength to me. I am honored by them, encouraged, and blessed.

I am thankful for my dad. He and I are getting closer and I love it. Pray for him....he has surgery on the 15th he has ulcers in his stomach and he is getting them removed. And last time I spoke with my dad I could sense fear in him. So if you could pray that everything goes good that would be awesome.

I am thankful that my cousin is getting married and I get to travel to Winnepeg to visit her. She is my closest cousin. I am thankful that God has our relationship in his palm.

I am thankful that today is a day of rest for me.

I am thankful for the best couple I know Ron and his wife. They have been walking with me, and really never left me. They are an amazing couple...and I cherish them so much.

I am truly thankful that with everything I have been through in this last year God is now restoring me and I am so grateful that I have been given another chance through him.

I am thankful that I am no longer am in the process of hanging out with people who gossip. God has taken me on this very long journey. When I first became a Christian I talked about everything and everyone. But as I grew in the Lord...God stirred in me the cost of gossip. Gossip destroys relationships badly. I know because I have lost a lot because of it. But there is something maturing in me to not even wanting to now what someone else did unless they care too share it with me. I am by no means perfect......but thankful I am so on the right road.

Blessings today....thanks for stopping by!

Wordless Wednesday

2007-06-13T08:01:00.001-07:00

This first one reminds me of the river of God. How God brings healing waters to us all, we have to come to drink and be renewed.
This second one... is for all those Dads out there. As well to me this picture reminds me that God holds tightly to the fatherless. He shows us that he loves us all so much.

Where is Everyone From?????

2007-06-12T21:01:00.000-07:00

Better things come in two's

2007-06-12T20:32:00.000-07:00

Two of your favorite colors: purple. and yellow

Two of your favorite Christian Artists: Zoe girl...Casting Crowns

Two of your favorite meals: pizza....and any homemade casseroles

Two of your favorite people: My mom...and Mary

Two of your favorite books in the bible: Proverbs....and Hebrews

Two of your least favorite foods: Broccoli....and spinach

Two sexes of your children: Boys!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Two of your favorite movies: Loves Enduring Promise........ And Passion Of The Christ

Two of your worse Phobias: Heights and spiders

Two of your favorite quotes:

"Christ took our sins and the sins of the whole world as well as the Father's wrath on his shoulders, and he has drowned them both in himself so that we are thereby reconciled to God and become completely righteous."

( Martin Luther )

"Courage is contagious. When a brave man takes a stand, the spines of others are stiffened."

( Billy Graham)

Two things that you are in the process of doing: Buying a home......preparing myself for the up coming year

Two things that you would love to do right now: HeHe lose a lot of weight.......sleep

Two people you have enjoyed meeting: Little Res Hearts ( Connie ) and well Fruit In Season

Two places you would really love to go to: Paris..Scotland

I think I will tag umm.....The Preachers Wife, and Fruit In Season

2007-06-11T08:47:00.001-07:00

The beauty of Gods creation. The amazing gift that we have been given. To toil the earth, and everything that belongs in it is for us.

That is humbling, to know that God gave us all that we would ever need or want. And yet in today's society, it is not enough.

We want more, we would do anything to get more. More money, more cars, more houses, more cloths. We are neglecting the fact that before there was T.V there was none. And before there were cars there wasn't any. How our world has changed, and continually does.

But today I vast in the beauty of God's creation. And I am so truly thankful that I have what I have. I desire that as things and people change around me, that I stay true with God. Not chasing after things of this world, but chasing things in the heavens. To seek whole heartily the things that God seeks.

I am so truly amazed when I think of the Amish people. Even though I have never met one, they are so true to what God says what we should live like. So how is it that the Amish have kept there values in this ever changing world around them. Because they desire what God says about how they should live. And honestly I admire them, and desire to live that way. Well, maybe a little bit. I do not care for horse and buggy, but other than that there standard of life seems so holy to me. I know some think that they are " weird, and how on earth could they live like that." But it truly makes God real to me.

We have lost our way, but they have made it a point to keep there ways for generations. They do not have T.V, cars or anything of the sort. They dislike being publicly displayed. They are humble and they work hard for everything they have. Not things, but the land. Hummm brings me back to Genesis.

To be at peace like the Amish. They never worry that God wouldn't provide for them. They do not worry about crime, and people hurting them. Because they are serving the Lord in everything they do. From home made bread to planting the seeds for there crops. And there children are very well trained, and are very obedient. The Amish never worry about sexual sins for there children, they never worry about drugs and alcohol. They know where there children are at all times, and the community raises each others children. They are simple......they are honoring God in every task...displaying God to those who do not know God. Just by how they live.

How I feel this call for my family. I feel so strongly led to let the world in me die. And that means sacrificing things I have come to love. That means victory in my life.....a blessing to pass onto my children. And my children's children.

`These are my thoughts today. I hope that you enjoy them, think them over and let them stir in your life.

Blessings

2007-06-07T12:28:00.001-07:00

- I am thankful for all the people I know now and people I will soon get to now.

- I am thankful that we only have to wait at a red lights for 5 minutes : )
- I am thankful that the gas prices might go down
- I am thankful that I got my cleaning done for today
- I am thankful that my little one is walking....he is Mr Independant now ( Yippy)
- I am thankful that I will be home schooling next year
- I am thankful for all the trials I am going through and will go through
- I am thankful that zits go away after a couple of days : )
- I am thankful that you can choose to have extra butter on your popcorn.
- I am very thankful that God leads me....and yep I follow
- I am thankful that I haven't yet been bitten by a bee
- I am thankful that flowers smell beautiful...even dandy lions hehe which is my daughters favorite flower (wink) she doesn't now that it is not one.
- I am thankful that after it rains we get a beautiful reminder of the Covent with Noah, a rainbow.

Ok So Not So Much Of A Wordless Wednesday

2007-06-06T20:53:00.000-07:00

Okay so I have been reading and re-reading the train up a child series, in which I love. And I realized something...something profound in my spirit. The series looks like To Train Up A Child, but I find myself thinking that the series is actually training me. I find that a lot of my children's " bad behaviour" comes soley from there mom. Me....wow what a hit. As a single mommy I so try to be my children's all and all. But holy cow it takes a lot of energy. Not only being the mom and dad but sole provider and sole spiritual leader. But I find strength in my Lord every morning, and I now that God knows that I am doing the very best I can do. But I mainly judge myself and all the things on my plate. And what scares me the most.....big breathe in......drum roll........is me not correcting my children properly. To direct them to the right road in life....the road of righteousness. And as there mother that is soley my responsibility. That honestly terrifies me so much....because I do not take this lightly. In fact my heart cries out for the Lord's forgiveness especially when I have failed, in ever area I have failed. And believe me when I say this statement of faith....that I am so forgiven and where I lack God anoints.
" Mark well that GOD doesn't miss a move you make; he's aware of every step you take." proverbs 5 (The Message)

" Put GOD in charge of your work, then what you've planned will take place." Proverbs 16

Amen to these verses, I stand firm that GOD knows everything I do right and everything I do wrong. And there is so much comfort there, I feel a release from what pain I carry about my parenting. And I have faith that as GOD works in me, he will restore me to be the very best mother that my kids will ever have......I love GOD so much for giving me healthy children. I am so thankful that GOD allowed me to be there mother. Especially on the days, I feel like why on earth would GOD give me such beautiful children. And honestly I can not wait until the day when the Lord looks at me and says, " You have done well, even though your circumstances were not all that great. You pressed forth, seeking only me. Way to go you faithful and blessed child of mine."

There is a sting in my heart I need to share.....I desire GOD this very moment. I have been on this desire mode now for a couple of days but its healthy for me to write what GOD places on my heart.

So thanks for coming a little closer to my heart.
Blessings TO you all~

Wordless Wednesday

2007-06-06T08:10:00.001-07:00

~Tuesday's In Other Words~

2007-06-05T06:48:00.000-07:00

"What used to make us stumble, God can use to make us stand. What once
made us bow our heads in shame,
He can use for His glory."

~ Joanna Weaver~
Having a Mary Spirit

I love this quote. Here is my interpretation of this quote. That the sins in our lives makes us stumble, especially when it is a repeated sin. But the glory and wonder of God, and the amazing love that he has for us all, can help us stand against our sin. I really love this second part of this quote. He can use us for his glory always. That we never need to bow our heads in shame again. Because we are justified by faith. We are God's masterpiece. We are loved so greatly, beyond our imaginations. That whatever we have we can come boldly come to the throne of Grace, without the shame and quilt we carry.

My deepest longings

2007-06-04T21:00:00.000-07:00

~ My deepest longing is to follow after God wholeheartedly no matter what life throws at me

~ My deepest longing is to be the mother that my children desire of me

~ My deepest longing is to be the best keeper of my home

~ My deepest longing is to draw nearer to God

My heart has been longing for so many things lately, and as the saying goes, with everything there is a season. So as I sit and wait for the seasons to come and go, I still tell God the deepest desires of my heart, because I believe that God honor what we desire. In fact, he wants us to have desires. He created us so that we could come to Him with those deep desires. ' Draw close to me, and I will draw close to you. '
Today has been an alright day. But I am struggling. ( Playing the Victim, just a little bit) For example, one thing that has bothered me for a while is loosing weight. I think for me its been a constant battle in my life. But I really have no one to blame but myself. I ate, I gained weight, I ate more and well now I am at the terrible weight I am. I get tired easily, have no energy. I am very moody, and emotional, and to be honest I hate it. But at the same time, am terrified to start and finish that race. I am so afraid of failure, but at the same time am afraid of rejection mostly. But this weight loss isn't 20 pounds its like over 100 and that is what scares me the most. I am eating myself into a heart attack, or possibly diabetes.
As this desire to lose weight stirs in me I really now that God is stirring that most uncomfortable feeling within me, because he knows whats at steak. He only wants the best for me, and I so now that. Sometimes I wish I so too wanted the best for me too. If only I could truly grasp the mighty love of my Lord Jesus Christ, then maybe I could get how I am slowly and surely killing myself.

~ So my prayer this week is that deep desire to get healthy, no quickly, and not over night, but for the rest of my adult life. That I can respect this body I have been given and stop listening to the lies of the enemy. And yeah stop playing that victim, as to why this happened it is me. My choice, and my will. And if I do not finally stand against what i now is wrong, then my choices my in fact have very serious life alternating consequences.

2007-06-02T11:11:00.001-07:00

I'm off to the beach today, it is hot and kids are wanted to get wet. Hope everyone has a wonderful weekend!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-06-01T07:17:00.000-07:00

" The fundamental fact of existence is that this trust in God, this faith, is the firm foundation under everything that makes life worth living.
By Faith the World was called into existence,
Bu Faith Abel brought a better sacrifice than Cain,
By Faith Enoch skipped death,
By Faith Noah built a ship in the middle of dry land,
By Faith Abraham said yes to God's call,
By Faith barren Sarah was able to become pregnant.......etc" Hebrews 11 ( THE MESSAGE )

" The Fundamental fact is that I trust God, and desire him to be that firm foundation and he makes my life worth living.
By Faith I will conquer and remove the sins that hinder my life.
By Faith I will sacrifice my own life for my loving Savior.
By Faith I will live again once my time on this earth is over.
And by Faith I too will say yes to God's call!

2007-05-31T08:19:00.000-07:00

1. I am thankful for all the lessons I am learning.
2. I am thankful for the nicer weather.
3. I am thankful for the beauty of rain.
4. I am thankful for the chance to share my testimony with others.
5. I am thankful for the cold that I have, and I would be even more thankful once its gone : )
6. I am totally thankful for the chance to reconnect with those whom I have lost touch with.
7. I am thankful that one the days I do not feel loved that God reasurres me that he does.
8. I am thankful for a loving family.
9. I am thankful that I am a hard working, loving, supporting, encouraging, forgiving, transparent mom.
10. I am thankful that my dog is potty training outside :}
11. I am thankful for all of the men and women who are serving in the Iraq war. Both Canadian and American.
12. I am thankful that I have the chance to live free.
13. I am thankful for all that I am reading in my Message Bible : )
14. I am thankful each day that God and I connect. And that I am thankful that I can serve Him.

Hope today there is something each one of you are grateful for. Blessings on you all!

I AM STUDY LESSON SEVEN

2007-05-29T22:34:00.000-07:00

Discussion Questions:

1. How would you answer the questions, "Who Am I?"
Who I am is not what I have. It sure is not what others think I am, or even what I desire me to be. I am who God made me to be. This is what I think of who I am: I am a child of God, I am forgiven, I am loved by the almighty, I am set free from shame and guilt, I am cherished and relished by Jesus, I am wonderful and beautiful made, I am justified through faith, I am sanctified, I am holy and without fault, I am God's masterpiece, I am made complete in Christ. I am also a friend, mother, sister, cousin, and niece. I am beautiful. I am smart.

2. Have you ever been in a situation where you felt inadequate because of your lack of a 'tagline'?
There are many times and many situations in which I feel inadequate. But the only thing that gets me through is knowing that out of my mess Jesus is blessed!

3. Do you have skills or position that you believe God could use mightily if only He would?
Humm yes and no to this question. I now I have skills, but it is truly God who determines where and when I use them, I am not angry or jealous at others who are doing what I desire. Because with everything there is a season. So I just sit back and now that one day that season may be mine.

4. Have you ever lost a position or station in life you believe could have 'helped God out' with something He has asked you to do? If you haven't lost out, do you perhaps feel you have to gain this in order to be useful to the Kingdom?
Yes I have and the reason I lost that position was because of me. I now I desired to keep that position, to "help God out" but I realized that maybe there is more for me. Maybe God desires for something else for me.

5. How are you with your dialogue vs. doubt conversations with God? Which does God hear most from you?
I think both. I talk to Him a lot, and I mean a lot. Some would say I talk to myself, cause I do talk, but not to myself. I talk to God like he is sitting across from me. And the funny thing about that is I catch myself doing that a lot in public. :} But there is a lot of doubt in me as well. I truly doubt my purpose in life, am I headed in the right direction, am I raising my kids right, etc.

6. Do you believe God's Wonders become more wonderful if they originate in the ordinary? Any Scripture references come to mind?
Yes I sure do. A lot I could write but none I can share, this is something God wants to reveal to me.

The Joys Of Homeschooling

2007-05-28T19:46:00.000-07:00

Ok so like I haven't started Homeschooling yet, but I think about it all the time.

I felt the stir in my heart about 8 months ago to dive head first into the Lords will for my childrens lives. Once the idea, and excitement wore off, reality hit. And not in a bad way, just in a holy cow way. I was overwhelmed with the even notion, and God changed that in me. Right now its the whole preparing for the harvest to set forth that scares me. Cause we all now that the enemy sure puts doubt into our little brains and tries to kill, destroy and steal the truth in us.

I find myself, wanted to prepare the crop for harvest. Preparing the house and preparing myself for this journey. I take it very seriously and care deeply that I go in the right direction...forward. I pray each day for that guidance I need. And yet I still feel totally and completely unprepared.

Lord will bring me forth in this journey I now, but you now sometimes wisdom helps it a little. And cause I really have little wisdom in this area, I will accept any suggestions!

2007-05-27T22:00:00.000-07:00

Healing rain is coming down
It's coming nearer to this old town
Rich and poor, weak and strong
It's bringing mercy, it won't be long

Healing rain is coming down
It's coming closer to the lost and found
Tears of joy, and tears of shame
Are washed forever in Jesus' name

Healing rain, it comes with fire
So let it fall and take us higher
Healing rain, I'm not afraid
To be washed in Heaven's rain

Lift your heads, let us return
To the mercy seat where time began
And in your eyes, I see the pain
Come soak this dry heart with healing rain

And only You, the Son of man
Can take a leper and let him stand
So lift your hands, they can be held
By someone greater, the great I Am

Healing rain, it comes with fire
So let it fall and take us higher
Healing rain, I'm not afraid
To be washed in Heaven's rain

To be washed in Heaven's rain...

Healing rain is falling down
Healing rain is falling down
I'm not afraid
I'm not afraid...

This song is so amazing, I feel the Holy Spirit shivering through my entire body when I play this song. This song represents the awesome Healing power of my Lord Jesus Christ. This song is the desire of my heart for others and myself. And I pray that this week, is filled with Gods healing power and let it rain in your life.

This is a link to a myspace place where this song can be played, enjoy! http://vids.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=vids.individual&videoid=860967482

2007-05-24T19:26:00.000-07:00

So today, I felt lead to go and get yet another bible. To those who do not know me, I have oh at least 4 so the count is now 5. I am a bible collecting addict. I love reading different versions of the truth, because each one of them states something the same, and yet different.

I bought myself The Message. I have heard so much about it, and I must credit my favorite Christian Tv Show for that 100 Huntley Street. On there today the woman host of the program stated that she was reading through The Message. And something stirred in me, and it was totally not because she had one, but I thought hey I don't have that version yet.

So kids in tow, I went to town and spent money on another bible. And on the way home my 3 year old was like, " Mom, whatcha gonna do with that?" And I replied ,"I am going to read it." And I thought to myself, hey why no read it again, back to front, cover to cover. And I was so excited, we got home and well I read all of Genesis before supper. But I thought to myself, Am I learning what I am reading. And a question came to me, "Do I want to read it, or do I want to know it?" And my soul cried out I WANT TO KNOW IT!! So I decided that I would slow the passion in me and learn like I never have before. The time is now and it is all I have so I chose to read and listen, understand and obey. All that the Lord will have for me in this Oh 3-4 months depending on how much time I read it.

This week I have been so overwhelmed with the Holy Spirit. I can not wait till I experience the truth of God's word. I will still be here, and I will totally share what I feel lead to.

Blessings To you ALL !!!!
Your Sister In Christ
Forgiven!

2007-05-24T07:53:00.000-07:00

1. I am thankful that I have four healthy kids. 3 boys and one outstanding girl. I am so thankful that God chose me to be there mom. I am also glad that God is allowing me to homeschool them this year, I am so excited about it.

2. I am thankful that I have new and old blogger friends. Women who enspire me, and give me hope. I thank God for each one of you daily.

3. I am thankful that I am healthy and that everyone in my house is healthy.

4. I am so thankful that God has a heart for me : ) and I am thankful that he sent his son to die for us all. I am thankful that when we call on Him he is sure to answer. And I am so thankful that he lovingly accepts us.

5. I am thankful for for everything, but have run out of time to share.
I Am Thank ful For:
- the very air I breathe
- the sun and moon
- people I meet for the first time
- all the seasons, cause I like them all
- cherished relationships with depth and meaning, and not fake
- I am thankful and grateful for this very day!

I AM Bible Study Lesson Six West Side Of the Wilderness ` By the Preachers Wife

2007-05-23T11:31:00.000-07:00

1. How current is your God? Is he up to date on all your issues or do you have old hurts you still hold behind your back? Well, I would say that I still hold on to the hurts. I have often felt like its to much for me to let go, even though my head nows differently. The burdens I carry, are not ment for me to carry and I now that God wants for me to release them, surrender them all. Even when I feel like its to much I have caused to much pain.

2. Has the enemy ever told you there are situations that are 'old news' that are better left stuffed down? Or perhaps because they were so long ago they can't possibly be affecting you now? Yes, I have totally fallen for that lie in my life. But the neat thing about God is that he brings it to the surface, even when we least expect it. There have been numerous situations in which I found myself holding back or stuffing it in. I believe, now, that it is healthy to deal with pain, to surrender it to God. And to follow after him for the true source of comfort.

3. In the matter of established authority, does God truly reign in your life? Where are you when He calls your name? Wow, God doesn't truly reign in my life. But I desire for Him to reign in my life. I am still, in that wilderness. But I am hearing his Faint calls for me, pushing towards the truth, and dying to self. Its been a long procces but I have faith that God will restore me to Him.

4. Do you ever feel God has forgotten you in your 'west side of the wilderness'?
Sometimes, sure I feel abandoned, by God. But I now that he will never leave me or forsake me. In this wilderness God is providing but it is me that can't see him.

5. Have you ever experienced a time of cleansing where God has illuminated and rejuvenated you? If not, do you find you are in need of this now?
Yes I remember times of rejuvenating and illumination. And I definately need one right now. I so need it my soul cries out for it, its been a long time.

2007-05-21T21:56:00.000-07:00

Could it be that the Lord loves me,
Could it be that he is calling me.

He is reaching out His amazing love upon me,

Could it be that he truly loves me.

This weekend I felt that deep contecting love that Jesus has for me.

The one that I have missed, The one I desire.

Jesus tugged at my heart strings calling me by my Name.

He reasured me of his everlasting love.

Though I have sinned, and walked away with my hands up in the air saying

WHY ME, LORD!

Playing the pity party, feeling the shame, God reminded me of the truth,

For God so Loved the world that he gave his only begotten son,

that who ever believeth in Him shall have eternal Life.

That God loved me that he sent his only son to die for me?

How amazing this is to me.

Even though I have sinned.

I have repented and you now what is amazing,

GOD forgives me, and I forgive myself.

And now its time for me to stop that WHY ME,

move on and let the Holy Spirit set me free.

That I am a special child, that not all is lost.

Cause God can use me, this I am sure of.

And all that pain I have carried is no longer mine,

What a feeling to see that lifted off, and laid at the cross.

How great is the LOVE that Jesus has for us all.

He is my comforter ( stand and say Amen if you believe this too)

He is my Abba Father,

He is my foundation and my rock,

He is my word of truth, in times of troubles,and in good,

He is my shield to protect me from those who are out to harm me,

He is my best friend ( with no judgment, no gossip, but the best ear a girl could have),

He is my source of energy,

He is my lover,

He is my Savior,

He is my creator,

He is the beginning and the end,

He is the best guide,

He is the best teacher,

He corrects us with a loving hand,

He disciplines us because he Loves Us.

But most of all,

He is the one I want to spend the rest of eternity with.

He is the one I want to now, deeply, and not artificially.

There is something in his eyes when one of his lost sheep come home.

Gladness, He rejoices with us, because he loves us!

~May the Heart Of God touch you as you read this, I pray. Stand firm in the truth, rely in the truth, but most of all focus all of you on the truth. Not what could have been, what should be, only if's or why me. Let the Lover of your soul, be that, your lover.

Blessings!

2007-05-16T07:24:00.000-07:00

We are made "partakers of the divine nature," receiving and sharing God’s own nature through His promises. Then we have to work that divine nature into our human nature by developing godly habits. The first habit to develop is the habit of recognizing God’s provision for us. We say, however, "Oh, I can’t afford it." One of the worst lies is wrapped up in that statement. We talk as if our heavenly Father has cut us off without a penny! We think it is a sign of true humility to say at the end of the day, "Well, I just barely got by today, but it was a severe struggle." And yet all of Almighty God is ours in the Lord Jesus! And He will reach to the last grain of sand and the remotest star to bless us if we will only obey Him. Does it really matter that our circumstances are difficult? Why shouldn’t they be! If we give way to self-pity and indulge in the luxury of misery, we remove God’s riches from our lives and hinder others from entering into His provision. No sin is worse than the sin of self-pity, because it removes God from the throne of our lives, replacing Him with our own self-interests. It causes us to open our mouths only to complain, and we simply become spiritual sponges— always absorbing, never giving, and never being satisfied. And there is nothing lovely or generous about our lives.
Before God becomes satisfied with us, He will take everything of our so-called wealth, until we learn that He is our Source; as the psalmist said, "All my springs are in You" (Psalm 87:7 ). If the majesty, grace, and power of God are not being exhibited in us, God holds us responsible. "God is able to make all grace abound toward you, that you . . . may have an abundance . . ." ( 2 Corinthians 9:8 )— then learn to lavish the grace of God on others, generously giving of yourself. Be marked and identified with God’s nature, and His blessing will flow through you all the time.-

2007-05-15T14:02:00.000-07:00

I AM SO GRATEFUL FOR EVERYONE WHO SHARES IN MY LIFE
GOD BLESS YOU TODAY HOPE ALL IS WELL!

Two Birthday Parties for The price of One

2007-05-14T10:23:00.000-07:00

My second oldest son turned 6 years old on mothers day. And the last little boy turns one tommorrow. How time flies by, to the two of them

Happy Birthday!!!!!

Come Forth Miracle Maker

2007-05-13T20:50:00.000-07:00

The Lord is at work
In me.
The sinner set free
To come forth

To come rejoice.
Amen!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Love my Devotion Today!

2007-05-11T08:42:00.001-07:00

Love is an indefinite thing to most of us; we don’t know what we mean when we talk about love. Love is the loftiest preference of one person for another, and spiritually Jesus demands that this sovereign preference be for Himself (see Luke 14:26 ). Initially, when "the love of God has been poured out in our hearts by the Holy Spirit" ( Romans 5:5 ), it is easy to put Jesus first. But then we must practice the things mentioned in 2 Peter 1 to see them worked out in our lives.
The first thing God does is forcibly remove any insincerity, pride, and vanity from my life. And the Holy Spirit reveals to me that God loved me not because I was lovable, but because it was His nature to do so. Now He commands me to show the same love to others by saying, ". . . love one another as I have loved you" ( John 15:12 ). He is saying, "I will bring a number of people around you whom you cannot respect, but you must exhibit My love to them, just as I have exhibited it to you." This kind of love is not a patronizing love for the unlovable— it is His love, and it will not be evidenced in us overnight. Some of us may have tried to force it, but we were soon tired and frustrated.
"The Lord . . . is longsuffering toward us, not willing that any should perish . . ." ( 2 Peter 3:9 ). I should look within and remember how wonderfully He has dealt with me. The knowledge that God has loved me beyond all limits will compel me to go into the world to love others in the same way. I may get irritated because I have to live with an unusually difficult person. But just think how disagreeable I have been with God! Am I prepared to be identified so closely with the Lord Jesus that His life and His sweetness will be continually poured out through Me? Neither natural love nor God’s divine love will remain and grow in me unless it is nurtured. Love is spontaneous, but it has to be maintained through discipline.

2007-05-09T08:07:00.000-07:00

THIS WAS POSTED ON MUSINGS OF A MOUNTAIN MOMMAS BLOG AND I WANTED TO SHARE IT, NOT AS MY OWN BUT AS SOMETHING I NEED TO BE REMINDED OFF.

Bits Of Stuff
The next time you feel like God can't use you, just remember . . . .
NOAH was a drunk.
ABRAHAM was too old.
ISAAC was a daydreamer.
JACOB was a liar.
JOSEPH was abused.
MOSES had a stuttering problem.
GIDEON was afraid.
SAMSON had long hair and was a womanizer.
RAHAB was a prostitute.
JEREMIAH and TIMOTHY were too young.
DAVID had an affair and was a murderer.
ELIJAH was suicidal.
ISAIAH preached naked.
JONAH ran from God.
NAOMI was a widow.
JOB went bankrupt.
JOHN the Baptist ate bugs.
PETER denied Christ.
The DISCIPLES fell asleep while praying.
MARTHA worried about everything.
The SAMARITAN WOMAN was divorced...more than once!
ZACCHEUS was too small.
PAUL was too religious.
TIMOTHY had an ulcerAnd LAZARUS WAS DEAD!... No more excuses now.God's waiting to use your full potential

2007-05-08T10:00:00.001-07:00

Perseverance means more than endurance— more than simply holding on until the end. A saint’s life is in the hands of God like a bow and arrow in the hands of an archer. God is aiming at something the saint cannot see, but our Lord continues to stretch and strain, and every once in a while the saint says, "I can’t take any more." Yet God pays no attention; He goes on stretching until His purpose is in sight, and then He lets the arrow fly. Entrust yourself to God’s hands. Is there something in your life for which you need perseverance right now? Maintain your intimate relationship with Jesus Christ through the perseverance of faith. Proclaim as Job did, "Though He slay me, yet will I trust Him" ( Job 13:15 ).
Faith is not some weak and pitiful emotion, but is strong and vigorous confidence built on the fact that God is holy love. And even though you cannot see Him right now and cannot understand what He is doing, you know Him. Disaster occurs in your life when you lack the mental composure that comes from establishing yourself on the eternal truth that God is holy love. Faith is the supreme effort of your life— throwing yourself with abandon and total confidence upon God.
God ventured His all in Jesus Christ to save us, and now He wants us to venture our all with total abandoned confidence in Him. There are areas in our lives where that faith has not worked in us as yet— places still untouched by the life of God. There were none of those places in Jesus Christ’s life, and there are to be none in ours. Jesus prayed, "This is eternal life, that they may know You . . ." ( John 17:3 ). The real meaning of eternal life is a life that can face anything it has to face without wavering. If we will take this view, life will become one great romance— a glorious opportunity of seeing wonderful things all the time. God is disciplining us to get us into this central place of power.

`The True Story~

2007-05-07T20:25:00.000-07:00

God is working in you, giving you the desire and the power to do what is right/pleases him.

Okay Amen there is hope for a sinner like me then. Yippy!!!!!! LOL!!! In all hope today I have thought alot about my walk with God, where I fail and what needs work. And the awesome thing is that He is in the process of changing me.

Change me on the inside Lord,
change me.
Change the desires of my heart
change it.
Change the way I view you Lord,
change me.

Change the lies
into the truth
change them.
Change the walk I have been walking
change the direction
change it Lord.

You alone now the heart in me
You desire it to be more of yours.
I turn the control over to the lover of my soul.
I feel it
I believe it
Help me live it,
Not perfect it
But desire it.

Amen!

Building For Eternity----My Devotion For Today

2007-05-07T07:39:00.000-07:00

Building For Eternity
LISTEN: READ:
Which of you, intending to build a tower, does not sit down first and count the cost, whether he has enough to finish it . . . —Luke 14:28

Our Lord was not referring here to a cost which we have to count, but to a cost which He has already counted. The cost was those thirty years in Nazareth, those three years of popularity, scandal, and hatred, the unfathomable agony He experienced in Gethsemane, and the assault upon Him at Calvary— the central point upon which all of time and eternity turn. Jesus Christ has counted the cost. In the final analysis, people are not going to laugh at Him and say, "This man began to build and was not able to finish" ( Luke 14:30 ).
The conditions of discipleship given to us by our Lord in verses 26, 27, and 33 mean that the men and women He is going to use in His mighty building enterprises are those in whom He has done everything. "If anyone comes to Me and does not hate his father and mother, wife and children, brothers and sisters, yes, and his own life also, he cannot be My disciple " (Luke 14:26 ). This verse teaches us that the only men and women our Lord will use in His building enterprises are those who love Him personally, passionately, and with great devotion— those who have a love for Him that goes far beyond any of the closest relationships on earth. The conditions are strict, but they are glorious.
All that we build is going to be inspected by God. When God inspects us with His searching and refining fire, will He detect that we have built enterprises of our own on the foundation of Jesus? (see 1 Corinthians 3:10-15 ). We are living in a time of tremendous enterprises, a time when we are trying to work for God, and that is where the trap is. Profoundly speaking, we can never work for God. Jesus, as the Master Builder, takes us over so that He may direct and control us completely for His enterprises and His building plans; and no one has any right to demand where he will be put to work.

2007-05-03T08:51:00.000-07:00

JESUS IS A WAYMAKER
Jesus is a way maker,
He made a way for me,
Placed my feet on higher ground,
And set this captive free.
He loosed the chains of bondage
That held my troubled soul,
Fed me from the manna dish,
And took me into His fold.
He's no respector of person,
And he'll do the same for you,
Change your outlook on life,
Bring heaven into view.

Forgiving Ourselves- My Devotion today By Mart De Haan

2007-05-03T07:37:00.000-07:00

Why do we punish ourselves for old regrets long after we believe God has forgiven us? The question stuck in my mind after a conversation with someone I’ll call TC. TC described himself as being in recovery for multiple addictions. A couple of times he said, “My problem was forgiving myself. I found it a lot easier to believe God had forgiven me than to forgive myself for what I’d done.”
In some ways I knew what TC was talking about. Long after believing God had forgiven me, I have silently cursed myself for doing things that embarrassed me and hurt others. What unnerved me is that TC seemed more willing than I was to admit that forgiving ourselves is something we need to do.
Is it up to us to forgive ourselves?
Although I was willing to beat myself up for past wrongs, offering mercy to myself seemed like playing God. If God wants us to pardon ourselves, I wondered why the Bible doesn’t quote Him as saying something like, “Even as I have released you from guilt, so you must now release yourselves.”
What surprised me is that TC helped me see that, without realizing it, I was doing the very thing I thought I was trying to avoid. He said, “I have a friend who got on my case for acting like I was greater than God. This friend kept saying, ‘Who do you think you are, God Almighty? God forgives you. But you don’t. What is this you’re telling me? Are you greater than God?’”
The good-natured prodding TC took from his friend helped me. Later, I remembered words of the apostle John who wrote in his first New Testament letter: “This then is how we know that we belong to the truth, and how we set our hearts at rest in His presence whenever our hearts condemn us. For God is greater than our hearts, and He knows everything” (1 John 3:19-20 NIV).
Why is it important to remember that God is greater than our hearts?
John reminded us that when the sin we have already confessed continues to torment us, God sees more clearly than we do. He sees everything. He sees the wrong and the regret we have acknowledged. He sees the price He has paid to release us from that sin. He sees the trust we have put in His Son. He sees the good work He has started in our hearts. And He knows that what He has begun He will finish (Philippians 1:6).
God also sees something else. He sees the people around us who are negatively affected as long as we continue to condemn ourselves. He knows we will never be good at loving others as long as we refuse to let the love and forgiveness of God flush the guilt and shame out of our lives.
Just before raising the problem of self-condemnation, John wrote, “This is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down His life for us. And we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers. If anyone has material possessions and sees his brother in need but has no pity on him, how can the love of God be in him?” (1 John 3:16-17 NIV).
John’s question prompts another. How can the love of God flow through us to those around us if we are saying, in effect, “I know You have forgiven me, Lord, but I have higher standards and expectations for myself than You do. I can’t walk with You. I can’t join You in Your mission of love, because I haven’t lived up to my own expectations.” We may think that’s humility. It’s probably wounded pride.
What does lingering guilt tell us about ourselves?
1.We may be expecting too much of ourselves. Whether we are struggling with our own wounded pride or grieving what we have lost, God’s thoughts are more reassuring than our own. Psalm 103 says, “He has not dealt with us according to our sins, nor punished us according to our iniquities. For as the heavens are high above the earth, so great is His mercy toward those who fear Him; as far as the east is from the west, so far has He removed our transgressions from us. As a father pities His children, so the Lord pities those who fear Him. For He knows our frame; He remembers that we are dust” (vv.10-14).
2.We may be limiting our ability to be what God wants us to be. Refusing to forgive ourselves as God has forgiven us does nothing but prolong and multiply our sin. Self-condemnation is the opposite of the gratitude that opens our hearts to God.
Open hearts to God and others is what the apostle John had in mind when he went on to write: “Dear friends, if our hearts do not condemn us, we have confidence before God and receive from Him anything we ask, because we obey His commands and do what pleases Him. And this is His command: to believe in the name of His Son, Jesus Christ, and to love one another as He commanded us. Those who obey His commands live in Him, and He in them. And this is how we know that He lives in us: We know it by the Spirit He gave us” (1 John 3:21-24 NIV).
Every day of self-absorbed self-condemnation is a day spent robbing ourselves of the joy of a grateful heart. Every hour of beating ourselves up is an hour spent robbing others of the good that God wants to do for them through us. By contrast, every day lived in the freedom of forgiveness is a day spent praising God. Every hour lived in gratitude for forgiveness is a day spent loving others on God’s behalf.
Father in heaven, in our thoughtful moments we know You are greater than our hearts. You see infinitely more than we do. You see the work You have begun in us, the Spirit You have given us, the forgiveness You have bought for us, and the desire You have given us to live in freedom rather than to hide behind past failures. Please help us to use that freedom to love others as You have first loved us. —Mart De Haan-- Mart De Haan

2007-05-02T13:28:00.001-07:00

No One Ever Cared For Me Like Jesus
(1) I would love to tell you what I think of Jesus.
Since I found in Him a friend so strong and true;
I would tell you how he changed my life completely,
He did something that no other friend could do.
CHORUS:
No one ever cared for me like Jesus,
There’s no other friend so kind as He;
No one else could take the sin and darkness from me,
O’, how much He cared for me.

(2) All my life was full of sin, when Jesus found me,
All my life was full of misery and woe;
Jesus placed His sstrong and loving arms around me,
And He led me in the way I ought to go.

(3) Every day He comes to me with new assurance,
More and more I understand His words of love;
But I’ll never know just why He came to save me,
Till some day I see His blessed face above.

Todays Devotion

2007-05-02T11:46:00.001-07:00

Patience is not the same as indifference; patience conveys the idea of someone who is tremendously strong and able to withstand all assaults. Having the vision of God is the source of patience because it gives us God’s true and proper inspiration. Moses endured, not because of his devotion to his principles of what was right, nor because of his sense of duty to God, but because he had a vision of God. ". . . he endured as seeing Him who is invisible" (Hebrews 11:27 ). A person who has the vision of God is not devoted to a cause or to any particular issue— he is devoted to God Himself. You always know when the vision is of God because of the inspiration that comes with it. Things come to you with greatness and add vitality to your life because everything is energized by God. He may give you a time spiritually, with no word from Himself at all, just as His Son experienced during His time of temptation in the wilderness. When God does that, simply endure, and the power to endure will be there because you see God.
"Though it tarries, wait for it . . . ." The proof that we have the vision is that we are reaching out for more than we have already grasped. It is a bad thing to be satisfied spiritually. The psalmist said, "What shall I render to the Lord . . . ? I will take up the cup of salvation . . ." (Psalm 116:12-13 ). We are apt to look for satisfaction within ourselves and say, "Now I’ve got it! Now I am completely sanctified. Now I can endure." Instantly we are on the road to ruin. Our reach must exceed our grasp. Paul said, "Not that I have already attained, or am already perfected; but I press on . . ." ( Philippians 3:12 ). If we have only what we have experienced, we have nothing. But if we have the inspiration of the vision of God, we have more than we can experience. Beware of the danger of spiritual relaxation.

Don't fall behind on your studying or homeschooling just bcz you're heading into the summer months... stay at it, stay at it, stay at it... Finish well.WEED YOUR GARDEN!!Don't wait until the weeds overtake your garden beds

2007-05-01T22:11:00.000-07:00

I feel compeled to write another blog today, because something has been on my heart. I wanted to share with everyone that my God is here right here. Working in me, and with me so prepare yourselfs, lol.
TRUTH #1: " I WILL GIVE YOU A NEW HEART, AND I WILL PUT A NEW SPIRIT IN YOU. I WILL TAKE OUT YOUR STONY, STUBBORN HEART AND GIVE YOU A TENDER, RESPONSIVE HEART"- EZEKIEL 36:26

TRUTH#2 "I AM FEARFULLY AND WONDERFULLY MADE"

TRUTH#3 " LOVE THE LORD GOD WITH ALL YOU SOUL, WITH ALL YOU HEART AND MIND LOVING HIM ALONE."

TRUTH#4 I AM HIS CHILD
TRUTH #5 I AM JUSTIFIED ROMANS 3: 24

TRUTH#6 OUR SINS ARE TAKING AWAY AND WE ARE FORGIVEN EPH.1:7

TRUTH, IS SOMETHING BEAUTIFUL. ESPECIALLY WHEN ITS DIRECTLY OUT OF GODS WORD. SOMEITMES, WE AS CHRISTIANS FEEL JUSTIFIED TO US SCRIPTURE AGAINST EACH OTHER, AS IF ONE SINGLE PERSON ACTUALLY CAN CONTAIN ALL THE INFORMATION THAT FLOWS FROM IT. BUT IT IS MY BELIEF HOWEVER, THAT GOD CREATED US UNQUICKLY AND WONDERFULLY DIFFERENT. WHICH MEANS THAT MY READING THE BIBLE, AND ME RECEIVING THINGS FROM GOD IS GOING TO BE DIFFERENT THAN ANYONE ELSES, BECAUSE GOD NOWS HOW I UNDERSTAND THINGS. THATS WHAT IS AMAZING ABOUT IT, WHEN WE SHARE IT AND NOT USE IT AGAINST EACH OTHER THEN AND ONLY THEN WILL WE GET THE REASON GOD GAVE US THE BIBLE IN THE FIRST PLACE.

MY GOD IS A LOVING GOD. HE GAVE ME THE RESOURCE TO TAP INTO THAT, THE BIBLE. AND ITS NEAT HOW GOD RESPONSES TO THAT. EACH TIME, EACH NEW DAY I GET SOMETHING DIFFERENT FROM SOME OF THE SAME SCRIPTURES. AND THAT EXCITES ME BECAUSE I FEEL GOD GETS CONNECTED WITH ME MORE AND MORE.

BUT ITS SAD ON THE OTHER HAND BECAUSE CHRISTIANS USE IT AS A TOOL TO TEAR DOWN OTHERS, NO LIFT THEM UP. IT'S SAD THAT A CHURCH CAN BE TOTALLY BLIND TO THAT REALITY. GOD ENCOURAGES THOSE WHO ARE AND HAVE NOTHING. WE AS CHRISTIANS HAVE SOMETHING, HIM. WE ARE TO SPREAD THE GOSPIL LIKE FIRE, FOR THE KINGDOM. BUT IN THESE DARK DAYS, CHRISTIANS AND NON CHRISTIANS ARE IN BATTLE, NOT WITH ONE ANOTHER BUT WITH DARK FORCES.

AND IF WE DO NOT STAND UP AND FIGHT THE IMPORTANT FIGHT, STANDING SIDE BY SIDE WITH ONE ANOTHER, THEN THE ENEMIES WON. (NOT LIKE HE IS GONNA) REALLY PUTTING ASIDE WHO NOWS WHAT AND WHO'S NOT LISTENING TO ME STUFF AND BE UNITED.

I KNEW THIS AWESOME PASTOR ONCE. WHEN THIS PASTOR WAS ON LEAVE THE ELDERS OF THIS CHURCH DESCIDE TO MAKE EXAMPLES OUT OF SOME SINNING CHRISTIANS. THEY KICKED THIS PERSON OUT FOR THE BASIS THAT THEY SIN. HUMM, WHEN I READ THIS AS I TYPE THAT IS SO HORRIBLE SAD. IF GOD LIKE WANTED TO MAKE EXAMPLES OUT OF US NO ONE WOULD BE HERE. BUT THAT IS WHERE GRACE AND MERCY COME IN, GOD HONORS THAT WHEN WE REPENT HE IS QUICK TO FORGIVE US. NOT SLOW, NOT JUDGING AND CERTAINLY NOT HAISTY. KICKING US OUT BECAUSE WE SIN.

HOW SAD THAT OUR CHURCHS ARE COMING TO THIS. HOW SAD FOR THE PEOPLE WHO FOLLOW THAT, AS NORMAL. SCRIPTURES MAY SAY THIS AND THAT ABOUT SINS, IN WHICH I AGREE. BUT NO WHERE DOES IT SAY THAT WE SHOULD LET ONE OF THESE GET LOST. MY HEART GOES OUT TO THAT PERSON, BECAUSE I AM THAT PERSON.

2007-05-01T07:37:00.000-07:00

For a while, we are fully aware of God’s concern for us. But then, when God begins to use us in His work, we begin to take on a pitiful look and talk only of our trials and difficulties. And all the while God is trying to make us do our work as hidden people who are not in the spotlight. None of us would be hidden spiritually if we could help it. Can we do our work when it seems that God has sealed up heaven? Some of us always want to be brightly illuminated saints with golden halos and with the continual glow of inspiration, and to have other saints of God dealing with us all the time. A self-assured saint is of no value to God. He is abnormal, unfit for daily life, and completely unlike God. We are here, not as immature angels, but as men and women, to do the work of this world. And we are to do it with an infinitely greater power to withstand the struggle because we have been born from above.
If we continually try to bring back those exceptional moments of inspiration, it is a sign that it is not God we want. We are becoming obsessed with the moments when God did come and speak with us, and we are insisting that He do it again. But what God wants us to do is to "walk by faith." How many of us have set ourselves aside as if to say, "I cannot do anything else until God appears to me"? He will never do it. We will have to get up on our own, without any inspiration and without any sudden touch from God. Then comes our surprise and we find ourselves exclaiming, "Why, He was there all the time, and I never knew it!" Never live for those exceptional moments— they are surprises. God will give us His touches of inspiration only when He sees that we are not in danger of being led away by them. We must never consider our moments of inspiration as the standard way of life— our work is our standard.--

A Loving God

2007-05-01T07:16:00.000-07:00

It seems that God is at work in me.
I rejoice,in Him.
for every gift is from Him and Him alone.

I take pleasure in meeting him every morning.
Filling my cup, way up to the top.
He calls me there, every day.

Renew your spirit, he calls out to me.
But, Lord its hard sometimes.
Dear child I now.

But have faith in me, and me alone.
For I cover you always, and love you dearly.
No matter how many enemies try to steal that from you,
know that it can never be stolen.

My love is never ending, always excepting.
Repent and call out to me,
Turn away from that sin.
Follow me, and I will substain you.

Remember our walk together is our walk,
And no one elses.
When you go through valleys, I am there.
When you go through moutains, I am always there.

How could this be that you love a sinner like me?
Because I now you, watch over you, and created you for my purpose.
I now its hard not to sin, but you must remain in the truth, ME.
For I alone can help you in this journey.

Take courage, my dear child.
Time is coming soon, that we will be together forever.
Let us rejoice together, cry together, laugh together, and walk together.
I desire more of you Lord, today and always.

My walk is a hard walk sometimes Lord, and sometimes I can not go on.
I now child, in those times that you can not walk anymore, I carry you.

Rest in me and fill you spirit with my truth,
BELIEVE
obey my commands
Repent and turn away from your sin.

Love you ALWAYS, God

2007-04-30T15:16:00.000-07:00

The joys and sorrows of friends we have and ones that we have lost. To all, I extend a hand. To you in love, that we may finally one day be as we should!!!!!!!!!!!!

A WORD FROM GOD

2007-04-30T11:23:00.000-07:00

ROMANS 2: 1

YOU MAY THINK YOU CAN CONDEM SUCH PEOPLE, BUT YOU ARE JUST AS BAD, AND YOU HAVE NO EXCUSE! WHEN YOU SAY THEY AR WICKED AND SHOULD BE PUNISHED, YOU ARE CONDEMING YOURSELF, FOR YOU WHO JUDGE OTHERS' DO THESE VERY THINGS!

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