Big things are happening around here

Well, it is official....we moved!

So much peace.......settling in.....our children are happier and our life seems so much better.

What a relief, finally. Lots of unpacking, sorting and cleaning still left to do. But I love it, truly. It was the best choice I have made for years.

Must get back at it talk later.

One Question, what will be your answer?

What do you want God to do for you?

The Story Of The Virgins Matt.25

" God's kingdom is like ten young virgins who took oil lamps and went out to greet the bridegroom. Five were silly and five were smart. The silly virgins took lamps, but no extra oil. The smart virgins took jars of oil to feed their lamps. The bridegroom didn't show up when they expected him, and they all fell asleep.

In the middle of the night someone yelled out, " He's here! The bridegroom's here! Go out and greet Him!

The ten virgins got up and got their lamps ready. The silly virgins said to the smart ones, ' Our lamps are going out; lend us some of your oil.'

They answered, ' There might not be enough to go around; go buy your own.'

' They did, but while they were out buying oil, the bridegroom arrived. When everyone who was there to greet him had gone into the wedding feast, the door was locked.

Much later, the other virgins, the silly ones, showed up and knocked on the door, saying " Master, we're here let us in"

He answered, ' Do I know you? I don't think I know you.'

So stay alert. You have no idea when he might arrive!"

( I love this story, and everytime I read it I learn something hidden beneth the words. Everytime!)

A Sister Needs Much Prayer

Last night I went to the emergency room...yippy gotta love those emergency rooms. Conclusion I have another bout of a painful kidney infection. So I am asking for prayer.....because this is now the second time I have had one and I am wondering why... The doctors are not sure why this keeps reaccures. And I was warned that if it were to happen again I would be staying in the hospital for a lengthy testing period......So please pray that God will heal me...and that the medication I am on will stop making me sick...

Thanks off for now to hard to sit down....

Reluctant----- unwilling, showing unwillingness slow to act.....

Fearful------causing fear; terrible, dreadful full of fear........

This is the story of my life. Dieting especially. Which one to choose, which one truly works. As if losing weight is not hard enough there are over a million programs to choose from. And they all claim the same results. So which one is right for me? Weight watchers? Best life Diet, man alive the diet/ fitness industry makes billions each year. Especially from overweight people like me.

It is sad really, cause the principiles are the same. Eat healthy, excersise more! Humm what a concept. And people profit...of others unheathy lifestyles.....

So this week I am asking the Lord to show me what exactly He wants me to do.......and exactly where I am to go.......

Blessings to all who have found the diet that works.....

My Feelings Today

~A man is called selfish not for pursuing his own good,
but for neglecting his neighbor's. ~

Richard Whately

In the Small Things...........great things are made......

I am so small....so weak...and so fragile....compared to God.

But in my smallness great things will come. Huge, gigantic things will come of me.... if I put my trust in God all the things that I dream will come true.

True I may never be a artist. Or a builder....or a scuba diver. A doctor, lawyer, teacher, nurse, or financial planner. This is true I may never be these things, and yet I am.

To my kids I am a sand castle builder, a swimming instructor, a doctor--mending all those scraped knees. The best lawyer in town--have to split up those arguments : ) I am there roll model teacher....there loving nurse.....a total budget planner. To my kids I am the best artist in the world.

So out of my smallness great huge things will be accomplished. My children are those big things in my life that God wants from me. And each day something profound comes from our relationship. They grow in the Lord, and so do I.

I love them all, with all that I am, and all that God is in me!!!!!!!!

Hip Hip Hiporay

`( This is not me...it is a lady named Diane. But this is how much I weigh.)~ Sad, but true. I have reached a weight that I am so sick of. But in this eye opening journey, I have realized so many things.

1) Is that I am so an emotional eater. Happy, sad, mad, dissipointed, angry, lonely, tired, depressed.... Yep I am an emotional eater. I haven't always been this size, nor this out of shape. And I am pinpointing the very moment I started to turn to food. It was after I had my oldest son. And through tramatic events that followed suit, I found that food comforted me, even for just a minute. And it got worse, way worse. With each child I have had I have never lost the baby weight. Wow, four kids, a lot of weight gained and not so much lost. Not that I am blaming my children, I would never do that. Because I totally know it was all me.

I chose to eat...I gained the weight.

What makes it worse is that now I am so addicted to food I am so scared of eating healthy. Sound weird? It is so true.

2) I put on the weight and only I can remove it. Ahh scary, yep. I have to lose over 100lbs....geesh that is like a baby elephant....holy man am I scarred. And yet...I am so sick and tired of having to only buy plus size close. Cause they never have anything I like. I am tired of people judging me for my weight. And I am tired of how weird I feel in a bathing suite.

3) Everything must change. The way I look at food. How I view excersise. The way I turn to food to be my friend.....and all that. It is all in my mind...and I so know that. What you believe about yourself ( positive or negative) you will be. If you think low of yourself, then you treat yourself negatively. So this must change. I must uproot all those lies I have told myself over the years, UPROOT THEM ALL! Place new truths in my head, biblical solid truths.

So yes, this is going to be my weight loss journey journal day---Saturday's

You can join me, if you wish.

I am going to keep you all posted!

I wanted to share my heart here.

First, when I blog, I blog what is on my heart. I sometimes feel God wanting me to share a particular thing, while other times I just write.

Secondly when I blog I never revel personal things. Because mind you it is on the Internet.

Thirdly, sometimes I write to vent, to complain, to whine. Sometimes I write about hurts, pain, and disappointment. Things from my past, and hopes for my future.

I try not to mention names, because I am not in this blogging world to bash anyone. So if you miss my motive, I am honestly sharing how I feel. I hope no one takes any personal attack, because it is not about that. It is about me, my walk, my life. I honestly hope I haven't offended anyone on here, and if I have I am so sorry.

Sometimes, it is hard to understand what someone is saying, especially on here. And because I know no one really knows me here, all is well. That is why we are called into relationships.....but on the high speed world of fast pass life...sometimes one can miss understand..heaven nows I have...a lot.

`So peace sisters read, my life. Learn something, laugh, cry and rejoice with me. You all mean the world to me. And I enjoy your comments.

Can you Honestly Love Plastic People In those Plastic Steepials

Gotta love those people who are plastic people.

They sit in there plastic benches in those plastic steepials.

Living plastic lives. They are proud of there plastic ways. Can one truly love plastic people. Who seem never to have anything wrong with them. There walk with God is perfect, the marriages are perfect, there kids are perfect, there health is perfect, there finances are perfect, nothing ever seems to get to these plastic people.

At least that is what they want everyone to know. But deep down in these plastic people they are not perfect. So why is it that they wish everyone to know they are perfect. Maybe, because if one truly looked inside them they wouldn't much like them. The things they say, about others, and the things they have done behind closed doors, would astound many that they have fooled.

So I cherish not being a plastic person. Everyone knows what is going on with me, before I do sometimes. But the great thing, isn't everyone knowing, it is that I am completely honest with God, and with myself.

It is Official................

I am moving....it is official...loan went through.........yeah so happy!

Now we need a lawyer ( yuck ) and we need movers.......and I need to pack again. But first we are totally gutting the house and fixing it up so I am not sure when the official move date will be......but we are so excited.

Right now, I am doing 5 loads of laundry ( not my favorite ), cleaning the dishes in my brand new dishwasher ( yippy), vacuuming is done...few. Kids are out of the house yeah, all except one...who is so having a great nap.

It is hot and humid but looks like rain.....oh how I love the rain.

My best friend moved here. Going out with her tonight...alone with no kiddies...so excited to spend time with her. She and I have been friends for 6 years now...and I love her.

As far as me and God.....he is my rock.....love him more and more...each new day.....
`Peace Out Sisters love ya all : } ~

Could it be any more hotter in here?

Crazy hot weather...it is about 30 + outside but it is about 40 + inside.....man can't win.

So hot...so grumpy...and so tired...but hey at least there is ice cold ice tea in the fridge...yippy.

To hot to continue...must retreat to my basement...lol

So....burnt....so glad to be Home!!!!

Well, my break was awesome. The kids and I did nothing but swim...swim...swim. Wow, being away from home, was so good. And it reminded me, that I am not a city girl. In fact, I hate city life with a passion. The peace, the quiet surrender, in the middle of no where, can't be described. The absolute freedom to be who you want to be. No gossip out in the middle of no where, ahh what a relief. It was a godly, moment in my life.

I loved it so much that I have decided to move my family away from the city life. From all those who have hurt me, and continue to. To get away and retreat into God's nature wow, can not see why no one else would.

Anyways, just a few things God showed me in the moments of silence I had.....

1) You can't build a fire with out wood..... meaning you can never build the flame after God if you allow people to stiffer it.

2) You have to be careful roasting marshmallows, because if they are not on the right way they will fall off. Meaning, that our walk with God has to be positioned in such a way so that God can actually work with us. Ever so gently turning us, so that he won't burn us. Positioning us over that refiners fire. Purifying us, making us clean and holy.......hummm

3) You need to take an flashlight when going to the outhouse in the middle of the night ( really gotta love that smell that outhouses admit). Must be that kinda stench when we sin....geesh who wants to smell that all the time, not me. As I learned this week off, that when one has to pee in the middle of the night, one really must take a light with them. Or they will stumble, fall for Satan's lies, believe that what others have to say is who one person is, or whatever. When we think we are in the light we really only have a flashlight shining down on where we think we are headed.

4) Always put bug spray on at night..... those little bugs bite, hard and leave a nasty itch. If we put God on he keeps all those nasty things from ever bothering us again. Backbiting won't hurt , gossip definitely won't affect you, others lying----won't get through . That itch that bothers us will soon go away, and we won't even remember what they where in the first place.


I am so glad I love to camp. I am so glad that God touched me in so many positive ways. This post may sound bitter, but it so is not...really. It is something that God is showing me, reveling to my heart, and it was such a good lesson. For so many years I followed after some certain women in the church I was going to. I so wanted to " fit in". But I got it all wrong I listen to them before I listened to God. They would say jump, and I would say, How High. Well, to find out later that these same women I so tried to impressed would sit around and gossip about me. How honestly devastating that was for me, so heart breaking really. But in away, it was the start of something that God would later reveal to me. It is not about others, goodness no my daughter, it is about me. If they choose to be like that, that is on them. If they choose to walk in sin, it is there sin....but there is something I need to work on in you. It is....
1) That God is God....no matter what that the creator of this world only wants me....that is right ladies I am God's favorite one....he told me so. His oppion matters only, His direction is the most important, and that means if someone says or does something or takes offense to something I have done, Oh well. It is making our relationship right first that matters mostly.

2) Believing without one single doubt that no matter how many times I " screw" up, He loves me anyways. He will never gossip, lie, backbite, cheat, belittle, abuse or neglect you. He will always love you, and he will never forsake you!


Oh ladies have so much more to say...so much more...but I have to clean and unpack...hehehehe.

P.S Please leave nice encouraging comments or don't leave any at all lol!( Sound like my mom, oh hey I am one.)

I Am Off....For Awhile Need To Give Blogger A Break

So Yeah I am going to be off blogger for some time. Going to the Lake, and I need to step away from blogger world for a bit. I am struggling, because I started blogging to reach out to those in need.....and to start online blogging Christian relationships. Not sure that either has occurred. But that is why I am walking away for a bit need to check my motives, and my heart.

So I guess for those who come....sorry....and those of you that care....thanks...pray for me!

Little Update

Joshua is 10 now. How time flies by. He is so smart, so loving, go athletic, and so popular. He is my firstborn. He is an amazing man already. He dearly loves his brothers and sister. And would do, almost anything for them. Makes me so proud that he is mine.

Next in line is Dayton. He is six, and going into grade one....taught by me of coarse. He is my extreme athletic. Anything and everything he picks up like nothing. He is more responsible, more caring and definately more helpful. I so love Him, for who God created him to be.

Then my only girl Zoe. She is three turning sixteen. She is my mommy in training. She is so smart and so beautiful. And she is getting so tall. She wants to be a singer/ song writer when she gets older. She is going to be taught kindergarden by me of coarse, and I am truly excited. I so love her, with all that I am.

Then there is Nathaniel. He's is my supermodel baby. He walks, runs, gets into everything...sigh. He has the most beautiful blue eyes that I have ever laid my eyes on. He is trying to speak....he can say three clear words.....so proud of him. I so love him, I cherish him. In every moment!

And well as for me....things are rising on that amazing horizon. Might have found the one I may marry... so excited.....

I am preparing my heart everyday in worship with my God. And my lover is so proud of me, and I so know it. Feels good to proclaim it, and to just receive it.

My children and I are off to the lake for a hole 7 days....so excited to get away. To get refreshed and renewed in the middle of God's creation....yippy skippy it is a camping we will go with all kids in tow....hehe.

So I love ya all can't wait to share when I get back.

Today:

I will worship you Lord

Tomorrow:

I will worship you again Lord


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This week is going supper slow. I have a lot on my mind this week. And if I let my mind take over I might miss the most important things. Worshiping God even when things aren't perfect.
Not like my life isn't...it actually is. I have come to peace with certain things...(ie) like I am at peace with what happened a year ago...few. One of the hardest things I had to walked through is finally finding rest at the foot of the cross.

A huge victory, even though I am sure that some many not think so.....it is a huge one. Things are best left at the foot of the cross.... it is the only place where we can dump our trash without a charge. The most amazing gift was given back to me, my son. Yeah, victory there as well. Praise God. ( Supper careful to tell this story, cause ya never know who reads your blogs)!
And God in His glory is working in me so much more so. But that doesn't mean I don't over think....cause I do. It doesn't mean that there are still areas I wish I could change....o because there are. It just means that I am lying face first at the cross. And God is reminding me.....just worship me!

LET US BE FISHER'S OF MEN!!!!!

To walk in truth we need to sacrifice ourselves.

This is one amazing heart truth that I have been learning this last while. Actually for the last year. It is so hard to always walk in truth. To always do what is right, in God's eyes. But we must press forth through our fleshly selfs, and do what we must in order to further God's kingdom.

With this sacrifice God assures us that he will honor that which he desires. Wow, isn't that so amazing that he will honor us when we do what is right in his eyes.

This is so easier said then done in our lives.....how I know this to be true. But as I stumble, well actually trip----fall face first-------then get up again, God watches over me, and you. When I think about my son Nathaniel, who is one know. But when he started to learn to walk I couldn't help thinking to myself, " Self, he will get up. He will find his way. I just need him to learn it on his own. With my loving supportive hand to guide him, he will eventually get it." And guess what HE DID.

He discovered, what we take a lifetime learning. How to balance, how to make a stand, how to walk in courage, and how get up when we fall. Wow, a one year old understands, and yet doesn't totally. And that is how I feel sometimes. I get it...yet I don't sometimes understand. But that is where God's grace and mercy flows in. Covers the areas where we haven't quite gotten, and gently shows us what needs to be done.

This week I am going to commit myself to two things. 1) that I will sacrifice t.v for one week ( kids are joing in whether they like it or not) 2) that I will sacrifice my sweets this week ( oh this is gonna be hard ladies trust me....already scared lol )

So I hope that there is some light in what I have said. I hope that God stirs some truth into your life.

Blessings, all my dear readers.
I love ya all!

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My Faithful Friday.....

Lord...help me to be faithful even in the small things.

Today I will be faithful in my duty as a mother. Even though Lord it can have hard times. I will remain faithful to them today. Teaching them your love. Showing the grace and mercy you show me everyday.

Today I will faithfully wait on you Lord, to reveil my destiny.

Today I will think of others in need and faithful pray for them.......

Thank you Lord. Teach me to grow in you faith, and your Love.