Wednesday, June 6, 2007

Tuesday, June 5, 2007

~Tuesday's In Other Words~

"What used to make us stumble, God can use to make us stand. What once
made us bow our heads in shame,
He can use for His glory."

~ Joanna Weaver~

Having a Mary Spirit


I love this quote. Here is my interpretation of this quote. That the sins in our lives makes us stumble, especially when it is a repeated sin. But the glory and wonder of God, and the amazing love that he has for us all, can help us stand against our sin. I really love this second part of this quote. He can use us for his glory always. That we never need to bow our heads in shame again. Because we are justified by faith. We are God's masterpiece. We are loved so greatly, beyond our imaginations. That whatever we have we can come boldly come to the throne of Grace, without the shame and quilt we carry.

Monday, June 4, 2007

My deepest longings

~ My deepest longing is to follow after God wholeheartedly no matter what life throws at me

~ My deepest longing is to be the mother that my children desire of me

~ My deepest longing is to be the best keeper of my home

~ My deepest longing is to draw nearer to God


My heart has been longing for so many things lately, and as the saying goes, with everything there is a season. So as I sit and wait for the seasons to come and go, I still tell God the deepest desires of my heart, because I believe that God honor what we desire. In fact, he wants us to have desires. He created us so that we could come to Him with those deep desires. ' Draw close to me, and I will draw close to you. '
Today has been an alright day. But I am struggling. ( Playing the Victim, just a little bit) For example, one thing that has bothered me for a while is loosing weight. I think for me its been a constant battle in my life. But I really have no one to blame but myself. I ate, I gained weight, I ate more and well now I am at the terrible weight I am. I get tired easily, have no energy. I am very moody, and emotional, and to be honest I hate it. But at the same time, am terrified to start and finish that race. I am so afraid of failure, but at the same time am afraid of rejection mostly. But this weight loss isn't 20 pounds its like over 100 and that is what scares me the most. I am eating myself into a heart attack, or possibly diabetes.
As this desire to lose weight stirs in me I really now that God is stirring that most uncomfortable feeling within me, because he knows whats at steak. He only wants the best for me, and I so now that. Sometimes I wish I so too wanted the best for me too. If only I could truly grasp the mighty love of my Lord Jesus Christ, then maybe I could get how I am slowly and surely killing myself.

~ So my prayer this week is that deep desire to get healthy, no quickly, and not over night, but for the rest of my adult life. That I can respect this body I have been given and stop listening to the lies of the enemy. And yeah stop playing that victim, as to why this happened it is me. My choice, and my will. And if I do not finally stand against what i now is wrong, then my choices my in fact have very serious life alternating consequences.