- I am thankful for all the people I know now and people I will soon get to now.

- I am thankful that we only have to wait at a red lights for 5 minutes : )
- I am thankful that the gas prices might go down
- I am thankful that I got my cleaning done for today
- I am thankful that my little one is walking....he is Mr Independant now ( Yippy)
- I am thankful that I will be home schooling next year
- I am thankful for all the trials I am going through and will go through
- I am thankful that zits go away after a couple of days : )
- I am thankful that you can choose to have extra butter on your popcorn.
- I am very thankful that God leads me....and yep I follow
- I am thankful that I haven't yet been bitten by a bee
- I am thankful that flowers smell beautiful...even dandy lions hehe which is my daughters favorite flower (wink) she doesn't now that it is not one.
- I am thankful that after it rains we get a beautiful reminder of the Covent with Noah, a rainbow.

Ok So Not So Much Of A Wordless Wednesday

Okay so I have been reading and re-reading the train up a child series, in which I love. And I realized something...something profound in my spirit. The series looks like To Train Up A Child, but I find myself thinking that the series is actually training me. I find that a lot of my children's " bad behaviour" comes soley from there mom. Me....wow what a hit. As a single mommy I so try to be my children's all and all. But holy cow it takes a lot of energy. Not only being the mom and dad but sole provider and sole spiritual leader. But I find strength in my Lord every morning, and I now that God knows that I am doing the very best I can do. But I mainly judge myself and all the things on my plate. And what scares me the most.....big breathe in......drum roll........is me not correcting my children properly. To direct them to the right road in life....the road of righteousness. And as there mother that is soley my responsibility. That honestly terrifies me so much....because I do not take this lightly. In fact my heart cries out for the Lord's forgiveness especially when I have failed, in ever area I have failed. And believe me when I say this statement of faith....that I am so forgiven and where I lack God anoints.
" Mark well that GOD doesn't miss a move you make; he's aware of every step you take." proverbs 5 (The Message)

" Put GOD in charge of your work, then what you've planned will take place." Proverbs 16

Amen to these verses, I stand firm that GOD knows everything I do right and everything I do wrong. And there is so much comfort there, I feel a release from what pain I carry about my parenting. And I have faith that as GOD works in me, he will restore me to be the very best mother that my kids will ever have......I love GOD so much for giving me healthy children. I am so thankful that GOD allowed me to be there mother. Especially on the days, I feel like why on earth would GOD give me such beautiful children. And honestly I can not wait until the day when the Lord looks at me and says, " You have done well, even though your circumstances were not all that great. You pressed forth, seeking only me. Way to go you faithful and blessed child of mine."

There is a sting in my heart I need to share.....I desire GOD this very moment. I have been on this desire mode now for a couple of days but its healthy for me to write what GOD places on my heart.

So thanks for coming a little closer to my heart.
Blessings TO you all~

Wordless Wednesday

~Tuesday's In Other Words~

"What used to make us stumble, God can use to make us stand. What once
made us bow our heads in shame,
He can use for His glory."

~ Joanna Weaver~
Having a Mary Spirit


I love this quote. Here is my interpretation of this quote. That the sins in our lives makes us stumble, especially when it is a repeated sin. But the glory and wonder of God, and the amazing love that he has for us all, can help us stand against our sin. I really love this second part of this quote. He can use us for his glory always. That we never need to bow our heads in shame again. Because we are justified by faith. We are God's masterpiece. We are loved so greatly, beyond our imaginations. That whatever we have we can come boldly come to the throne of Grace, without the shame and quilt we carry.

My deepest longings

~ My deepest longing is to follow after God wholeheartedly no matter what life throws at me

~ My deepest longing is to be the mother that my children desire of me

~ My deepest longing is to be the best keeper of my home

~ My deepest longing is to draw nearer to God


My heart has been longing for so many things lately, and as the saying goes, with everything there is a season. So as I sit and wait for the seasons to come and go, I still tell God the deepest desires of my heart, because I believe that God honor what we desire. In fact, he wants us to have desires. He created us so that we could come to Him with those deep desires. ' Draw close to me, and I will draw close to you. '
Today has been an alright day. But I am struggling. ( Playing the Victim, just a little bit) For example, one thing that has bothered me for a while is loosing weight. I think for me its been a constant battle in my life. But I really have no one to blame but myself. I ate, I gained weight, I ate more and well now I am at the terrible weight I am. I get tired easily, have no energy. I am very moody, and emotional, and to be honest I hate it. But at the same time, am terrified to start and finish that race. I am so afraid of failure, but at the same time am afraid of rejection mostly. But this weight loss isn't 20 pounds its like over 100 and that is what scares me the most. I am eating myself into a heart attack, or possibly diabetes.
As this desire to lose weight stirs in me I really now that God is stirring that most uncomfortable feeling within me, because he knows whats at steak. He only wants the best for me, and I so now that. Sometimes I wish I so too wanted the best for me too. If only I could truly grasp the mighty love of my Lord Jesus Christ, then maybe I could get how I am slowly and surely killing myself.

~ So my prayer this week is that deep desire to get healthy, no quickly, and not over night, but for the rest of my adult life. That I can respect this body I have been given and stop listening to the lies of the enemy. And yeah stop playing that victim, as to why this happened it is me. My choice, and my will. And if I do not finally stand against what i now is wrong, then my choices my in fact have very serious life alternating consequences.