So today, I felt lead to go and get yet another bible. To those who do not know me, I have oh at least 4 so the count is now 5. I am a bible collecting addict. I love reading different versions of the truth, because each one of them states something the same, and yet different.

I bought myself The Message. I have heard so much about it, and I must credit my favorite Christian Tv Show for that 100 Huntley Street. On there today the woman host of the program stated that she was reading through The Message. And something stirred in me, and it was totally not because she had one, but I thought hey I don't have that version yet.

So kids in tow, I went to town and spent money on another bible. And on the way home my 3 year old was like, " Mom, whatcha gonna do with that?" And I replied ,"I am going to read it." And I thought to myself, hey why no read it again, back to front, cover to cover. And I was so excited, we got home and well I read all of Genesis before supper. But I thought to myself, Am I learning what I am reading. And a question came to me, "Do I want to read it, or do I want to know it?" And my soul cried out I WANT TO KNOW IT!! So I decided that I would slow the passion in me and learn like I never have before. The time is now and it is all I have so I chose to read and listen, understand and obey. All that the Lord will have for me in this Oh 3-4 months depending on how much time I read it.

This week I have been so overwhelmed with the Holy Spirit. I can not wait till I experience the truth of God's word. I will still be here, and I will totally share what I feel lead to.

Blessings To you ALL !!!!
Your Sister In Christ
Forgiven!

1. I am thankful that I have four healthy kids. 3 boys and one outstanding girl. I am so thankful that God chose me to be there mom. I am also glad that God is allowing me to homeschool them this year, I am so excited about it.

2. I am thankful that I have new and old blogger friends. Women who enspire me, and give me hope. I thank God for each one of you daily.

3. I am thankful that I am healthy and that everyone in my house is healthy.

4. I am so thankful that God has a heart for me : ) and I am thankful that he sent his son to die for us all. I am thankful that when we call on Him he is sure to answer. And I am so thankful that he lovingly accepts us.

5. I am thankful for for everything, but have run out of time to share.
I Am Thank ful For:
- the very air I breathe
- the sun and moon
- people I meet for the first time
- all the seasons, cause I like them all
- cherished relationships with depth and meaning, and not fake
- I am thankful and grateful for this very day!

I AM Bible Study Lesson Six West Side Of the Wilderness ` By the Preachers Wife

1. How current is your God? Is he up to date on all your issues or do you have old hurts you still hold behind your back? Well, I would say that I still hold on to the hurts. I have often felt like its to much for me to let go, even though my head nows differently. The burdens I carry, are not ment for me to carry and I now that God wants for me to release them, surrender them all. Even when I feel like its to much I have caused to much pain.

2. Has the enemy ever told you there are situations that are 'old news' that are better left stuffed down? Or perhaps because they were so long ago they can't possibly be affecting you now? Yes, I have totally fallen for that lie in my life. But the neat thing about God is that he brings it to the surface, even when we least expect it. There have been numerous situations in which I found myself holding back or stuffing it in. I believe, now, that it is healthy to deal with pain, to surrender it to God. And to follow after him for the true source of comfort.

3. In the matter of established authority, does God truly reign in your life? Where are you when He calls your name? Wow, God doesn't truly reign in my life. But I desire for Him to reign in my life. I am still, in that wilderness. But I am hearing his Faint calls for me, pushing towards the truth, and dying to self. Its been a long procces but I have faith that God will restore me to Him.

4. Do you ever feel God has forgotten you in your 'west side of the wilderness'?
Sometimes, sure I feel abandoned, by God. But I now that he will never leave me or forsake me. In this wilderness God is providing but it is me that can't see him.

5. Have you ever experienced a time of cleansing where God has illuminated and rejuvenated you? If not, do you find you are in need of this now?
Yes I remember times of rejuvenating and illumination. And I definately need one right now. I so need it my soul cries out for it, its been a long time.

Could it be that the Lord loves me,
Could it be that he is calling me.

He is reaching out His amazing love upon me,

Could it be that he truly loves me.

This weekend I felt that deep contecting love that Jesus has for me.

The one that I have missed, The one I desire.

Jesus tugged at my heart strings calling me by my Name.

He reasured me of his everlasting love.

Though I have sinned, and walked away with my hands up in the air saying

WHY ME, LORD!

Playing the pity party, feeling the shame, God reminded me of the truth,

For God so Loved the world that he gave his only begotten son,

that who ever believeth in Him shall have eternal Life.

That God loved me that he sent his only son to die for me?

How amazing this is to me.

Even though I have sinned.

I have repented and you now what is amazing,

GOD forgives me, and I forgive myself.

And now its time for me to stop that WHY ME,

move on and let the Holy Spirit set me free.

That I am a special child, that not all is lost.

Cause God can use me, this I am sure of.

And all that pain I have carried is no longer mine,

What a feeling to see that lifted off, and laid at the cross.

How great is the LOVE that Jesus has for us all.

He is my comforter ( stand and say Amen if you believe this too)

He is my Abba Father,

He is my foundation and my rock,

He is my word of truth, in times of troubles,and in good,

He is my shield to protect me from those who are out to harm me,

He is my best friend ( with no judgment, no gossip, but the best ear a girl could have),

He is my source of energy,

He is my lover,

He is my Savior,

He is my creator,

He is the beginning and the end,

He is the best guide,

He is the best teacher,

He corrects us with a loving hand,

He disciplines us because he Loves Us.

But most of all,

He is the one I want to spend the rest of eternity with.

He is the one I want to now, deeply, and not artificially.

There is something in his eyes when one of his lost sheep come home.

Gladness, He rejoices with us, because he loves us!

~May the Heart Of God touch you as you read this, I pray. Stand firm in the truth, rely in the truth, but most of all focus all of you on the truth. Not what could have been, what should be, only if's or why me. Let the Lover of your soul, be that, your lover.

Blessings!