I Am Off....For Awhile Need To Give Blogger A Break

So Yeah I am going to be off blogger for some time. Going to the Lake, and I need to step away from blogger world for a bit. I am struggling, because I started blogging to reach out to those in need.....and to start online blogging Christian relationships. Not sure that either has occurred. But that is why I am walking away for a bit need to check my motives, and my heart.

So I guess for those who come....sorry....and those of you that care....thanks...pray for me!

Little Update

Joshua is 10 now. How time flies by. He is so smart, so loving, go athletic, and so popular. He is my firstborn. He is an amazing man already. He dearly loves his brothers and sister. And would do, almost anything for them. Makes me so proud that he is mine.

Next in line is Dayton. He is six, and going into grade one....taught by me of coarse. He is my extreme athletic. Anything and everything he picks up like nothing. He is more responsible, more caring and definately more helpful. I so love Him, for who God created him to be.

Then my only girl Zoe. She is three turning sixteen. She is my mommy in training. She is so smart and so beautiful. And she is getting so tall. She wants to be a singer/ song writer when she gets older. She is going to be taught kindergarden by me of coarse, and I am truly excited. I so love her, with all that I am.

Then there is Nathaniel. He's is my supermodel baby. He walks, runs, gets into everything...sigh. He has the most beautiful blue eyes that I have ever laid my eyes on. He is trying to speak....he can say three clear words.....so proud of him. I so love him, I cherish him. In every moment!

And well as for me....things are rising on that amazing horizon. Might have found the one I may marry... so excited.....

I am preparing my heart everyday in worship with my God. And my lover is so proud of me, and I so know it. Feels good to proclaim it, and to just receive it.

My children and I are off to the lake for a hole 7 days....so excited to get away. To get refreshed and renewed in the middle of God's creation....yippy skippy it is a camping we will go with all kids in tow....hehe.

So I love ya all can't wait to share when I get back.

Today:

I will worship you Lord

Tomorrow:

I will worship you again Lord


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This week is going supper slow. I have a lot on my mind this week. And if I let my mind take over I might miss the most important things. Worshiping God even when things aren't perfect.
Not like my life isn't...it actually is. I have come to peace with certain things...(ie) like I am at peace with what happened a year ago...few. One of the hardest things I had to walked through is finally finding rest at the foot of the cross.

A huge victory, even though I am sure that some many not think so.....it is a huge one. Things are best left at the foot of the cross.... it is the only place where we can dump our trash without a charge. The most amazing gift was given back to me, my son. Yeah, victory there as well. Praise God. ( Supper careful to tell this story, cause ya never know who reads your blogs)!
And God in His glory is working in me so much more so. But that doesn't mean I don't over think....cause I do. It doesn't mean that there are still areas I wish I could change....o because there are. It just means that I am lying face first at the cross. And God is reminding me.....just worship me!

LET US BE FISHER'S OF MEN!!!!!

To walk in truth we need to sacrifice ourselves.

This is one amazing heart truth that I have been learning this last while. Actually for the last year. It is so hard to always walk in truth. To always do what is right, in God's eyes. But we must press forth through our fleshly selfs, and do what we must in order to further God's kingdom.

With this sacrifice God assures us that he will honor that which he desires. Wow, isn't that so amazing that he will honor us when we do what is right in his eyes.

This is so easier said then done in our lives.....how I know this to be true. But as I stumble, well actually trip----fall face first-------then get up again, God watches over me, and you. When I think about my son Nathaniel, who is one know. But when he started to learn to walk I couldn't help thinking to myself, " Self, he will get up. He will find his way. I just need him to learn it on his own. With my loving supportive hand to guide him, he will eventually get it." And guess what HE DID.

He discovered, what we take a lifetime learning. How to balance, how to make a stand, how to walk in courage, and how get up when we fall. Wow, a one year old understands, and yet doesn't totally. And that is how I feel sometimes. I get it...yet I don't sometimes understand. But that is where God's grace and mercy flows in. Covers the areas where we haven't quite gotten, and gently shows us what needs to be done.

This week I am going to commit myself to two things. 1) that I will sacrifice t.v for one week ( kids are joing in whether they like it or not) 2) that I will sacrifice my sweets this week ( oh this is gonna be hard ladies trust me....already scared lol )

So I hope that there is some light in what I have said. I hope that God stirs some truth into your life.

Blessings, all my dear readers.
I love ya all!